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To take things seriously

So did you ever take things seriously, or are you hitting what others would call a defeatist attitude?

Normally, if I didn't take something seriously it would make me very happy to know better, but the way you are presenting it is that you don't take things seriously, as if you are removed from the world, disassociated from it, watching it go by.

That could be depression. That medication might make all the difference in the world. There are papers that claim people reach full remission. I've discontinued use for several months now, and at first I felt I was in full remission, but now I'm thinking I need to revisit the stuff for another few weeks worth or so... I simply zone out, more than I am comfortable with...

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No, I didn't feel guilty and my pets are dead now. When people complained about it I said my pets are fine (which they were according to me). I also found many things about the matter amusing.

I don't know, but as I wrote I don't really feel depressed.

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Yeah there are two different types of depression. I am not talking about the snoopy and charlie brown, guy with the blanket and clouds over his head.

I am talking about clinical depression. It is more along the lines of low functioning.

 

Nobody wakes up in the morning and says, hey, I feel 10 IQ points lower today.

I've been poisoned in the past. It is almost entirely non-perceptible. It wasn't until I started trying to draw stuff that I knew, something had seriously fucked me up. I started trying to time how long it took me to do simple math like subtraction, multiplication, division and addition. Some of it was simply impossible for me at the time.

 

Something can hit your brain anywhere really and mess it up. There are different parts of the brain responsible for different things. You are pointing out muted emotions, but your behaviors and speech are saying something different if you ask me. You are acting if you have guilt and fear, and such, you just are not feeling the way you could be. You are dead inside, just a touch... possibly clinically depressed, the low functioning variety...

 

See the key difference is that someone can also be depressed, and feel deeply sad. That's the charlie brown variety...

 

 

To give you an idea of how common clinical depression is... think of the thousands of toxic dangers in our society. You could have carbon monoxide leaking in your friggin basement and be doing brain damage every day, and have no clue what was happening. 

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Could be that it is a defeatist attitude. I did take some things seriously as a child but not other things (like school). That changed later on for some years... Then I did take antidepressants for a while and though I'm not sure if it was connected to that, the old "devil may care"-attitude came back to some degree. And this was long ago...

And yes in some way I do see the world like a movie. I've even written about it in a poetic way or like philosophical musings. It's not like I'm disassociated, although sometimes I do things like I'm on "auto pilot".

To be honest I don't really think there is something wrong with me at all. I have some problems but they are caused by other people. My "inability" to handle these problems stems partly from that I don't take things seriously enough. So with that I could need some help or advice...

I talked to a friend a while ago how horrible it would be to take everything seriously. This because another person we know had complained about my lack of "seriousness".

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Ok, I appreciate your input. But I don't really have to be so serious and I don't even think I ought to be. It's not like there is something serious I have to do except handle a possibly life-threatening situation. If I am in the right environment without people fucking up my life, I have no problems.

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To take things seriously

You ever heard the saying that ADHD, is nothing more than a defense mechanism for children being abused by their parents.

So... you're defeated... stop taking things seriously... that is your defense mechanism...

go travel... for the love of god, don't waste the next five years of your life on the internet...

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I haven't really been abused although my upbringing wasn't the best. And I do have ADHD according to some tests I did online, but I have never been diagnosed with it.

And I never admit defeat (I can't) and I don't see doing anything I want to do as wasting my life.

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So you take yourself pretty damn seriously... what's the deal?

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Yes, I am very serious about myself and everything. I also posted this for very serious reasons. I am leaving now... Have serious business to attend too. Thanks for the conversation.

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It's your amygdala... I guarantee you...

 

If you're reading the ASPD page... yeah same deal... amygdala...

Bet you wish you had half the amount of business to attend to like a real sociopath like Nicole Kidman, eh?

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