Oh you have no idea.
Well I hope whatever is frustrating you amends itself.
You know what I really want?? I just wish something would change..... Like if the rules of life were altered just a little. I'm sick and tired of doing this same kind of thing over and over again, I want a different life. This is why I like the Matrix movies so much, I like the idea that life is a computer generated construct that can, also, be manipulated. I mean, I am not talking about just a change in my lifestyle, like living somewhere else, or something that I myself could change, that is useless. I mean like a radical change in the way society is put together, like for example, what if people did not put a stigma on curse words?? Then you could just say whatever you wanted, and no one would care. Or what if our government was organized differently, what if we lived in a more communistic society or a cutthroat capitalist one?? Or what if our entire planet was made up of different chemicals, what if water had never appeared on Earth (however it did in the first place), and we would have had to evolve to survive without it?? Changes like these, that is what I really want, I really don't like this particular universe that we humans have created, I just don't.
Some of the quantum physicists say, in the Many Worlds model, that whenever there is an event, such as one atom hitting another, there are several ways it can happen, and when that event does occur, separate universes are created, each of them corresponding to all of the ways that an event could have happened. I don't know if I buy into this model, it seems more than a little farfetched. But if it were true, wouldn't it be cool?? Because that would mean that there is a universe, somewhere, where water never appeared on Earth, and curse words were not stigmatized, and we lived in a totally different society, and I had never gotten in this shitload of trouble. Even one where I was never born. Or, if you go all the way back to the Big Bang, one where there are different fundamental forces, where there is no such thing as electromagnetism, and the strong force and the weak force do not exist, and there is some other unknown force in their place?? So you see, I wish that I could witness some of these alternate universes, if they are there. I just wish it would change.......... I am so tired of this crap.