When people act deliberately helpless while skirting around what they truly are trying to communicate.
I try not to rage these days, as the last bought of rage that struck me for several days/weeks, introduced hallucinations. I believe the intense blood pressure somehow stretched my brain into other dimensions.
Nothing in particular calms me. I allow myself to be calmed, in which case I prefer beautiful things. They entrance me, such as music that soothes the savage beast, or some nice fragrances, maybe a beautiful sky.
A few years ago I was really into binaural beats as they were akin to a hammer to my tension. Now I watch mostly asmr, and when I need to really accomplish something, I prefer to indulge in endurance exercise.
