Being a sociopath who took many years of Theatre, I have perfected my lying and deceit ability more than I would hope. It has gotten out of hand and I can't stop lying to the people I 'love' and really anyone. My question to the community is; Should I keep being me and just hope that I don't evolve into something terrible or should I lie to myself and act as if there's nothing wrong with me? Just pretend like I'm the same as everyone else? This is troubling to me because on one hand, I'm hurting people that I should care about and that in turn hurts me through domino effect, and on the other hand, I want to be me. I love being me because, well, it's just who I am and that' never easy to get rid of.
If anyone has any advice, please don't hesitate to respond. Thanks.