It's more to do with your lack redeeming qualities.
Oh I get how high profile people would enjoy that kind of treatment, they’re always in seats of inscrutable power.. so once in a while they enjoy being the powerless. I can’t relate to it because I don’t enjoy being punished but I get the gest.
To be fair I can’t poke holes into why a sociopath would enjoy this type of behavior, you’re given power over a someone weaker and less worthy than you, and when you’re the “bottom†you exhibit the type of role that you secretly always wanted but would never allow anyone to play “dominant†unless the it was done secretly to not ruin your reputation as the strong alpha that everyone knows and loves (then again that’s half the thrill, isn’t it?).
The whole thing comes down to control. You seem to be a bit confused. even when playing bottom you are still in control. you are merely allowing your target to believe they have power. this in turn is a form of manipulation because ultimately you can take it back at will. there is never a time when the dom isn't trully in control. and no it doesnt get me off to play sub, it does however get me off to see the emotions i can enduce in my subs through subtle manipulation. sex in itself is not about the orgasm for me (which is why i enjoy tantric sex) but about the wide range of sensations and emotions it can elicit from my sub/target. it is about the power i wield over them.
A female sociopath is often the most invigorating experience. A woman that can manipulate me into intoxication while i do the same to her is the highest form of extacy... however those women are rare... it is more often that i find classically powerful women with a decire to simply be controled... which takes the challenge out of it. and as for broken women... most are... it is through that weakness that you cultivate and nurture a sense of trust and belonging. if they have no apparent weakness... they are most likely successfully lieing to and manipulating you. but i am certain its there in most if not all cases.