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I'm just not sure if I should be talking about it online at all. But I graced the topic. And as long as I don't anything I guess it doesn't matter. I feel like the first thoughts I had were back when I was 12. And I could see that. As far as past unresolved issues, I could see that I guess. But i feel like I forgave all my wrong doings and I work very hard to have a happy life and not let my ego get in the way of my life. But the thoughts don't disturb me at all. They turn me on. I may honestly say laws are the only thing stopping me. I'm not to sure what I would of done by now if I didn't have that worry. I do have specific methods but I would prefer not to post those on the forum for every ones peeking eyes to see just how sick and twisted I am. 

What kind of stimulation do you get when you feel urges? Does it turn you on too? 

But I don't know you fools. But I'm curious.... I feel like I am fool for being on here. All this talk about killing people.... should I be using a proxy; I don't know how too. All I know is that I keep having brutal and vulgar thoughts about everyone I see. I have been sitting in silence for the last few hours debating if I was evening going to post on here. I know I'm "fucked" in the head as society sees it. But I don't feel that way about myself, and I defiantly don't think I'm crazy even though I was diagnosed with multiple mental disorders at the early ago of 12.... Blah blah blah about my past life, that's none of anyones business on this site. I know people kill people all the time but is it possible to make these thoughts go away. I know that uppers take my dreams away while i sleep but they do no good for the lady I'm looking at in the store.... I can't help that these thoughts play out in my head all day everyday but I know I can help keep myself from acting on them. But that doesn't mean I don't want to, because I want to. I want to torture them. I want to rape them. So many thoughts I don't even know which one I would choose if I were to choose one. How can you know your favorite if you haven't tried it. I'm here because I am on the hunt for a group of like minded individuals. I want to find others like me. 

You two sound like a fabulous couple. Enjoy.

This guy gets me, he put into words what I couldn't for some reason, I applaud your courage, man.

by ccumz

I feel like I am fool for being on here. All this talk about killing people.... should I be using a proxy

Nope. Nobody here is threatening to kill you, so you got nothing to worry about.

I know people kill people all the time but is it possible to make these thoughts go away.

It depends on what's driving them and why you want them to go away.

Homicidal thoughts can be the result of past issues that haven't been resolved. 

Why do you think you're having homicidal thoughts and when did they start?

Other than being so intrusive, do they disturb you at all?

I can't help that these thoughts play out in my head all day everyday but I know I can help keep myself from acting on them. But that doesn't mean I don't want to, because I want to. I want to torture them. I want to rape them.

What do you think is stopping you from acting on your fantasies?

So many thoughts I don't even know which one I would choose if I were to choose one. How can you know your favorite if you haven't tried it.

Aren't there any specific methods of murder that appeal to you more than others when you fantasize about killing people?

Sure, you can't really know which one is your favorite until you actually try it in real life, but if you're not prepared to act on your fantasies, then I hardly think it matters which method of murder you favor.

I'm here because I am on the hunt for a group of like minded individuals. I want to find others like me. 

I have homicidal fantasies too and I experience urges to kill. I started getting the urges in my mid teens (I'm 41 now), but I was having homicidal thoughts a lot earlier than that, since early childhood. I don't think about murder as often as you though. Well, I do at times, but only when I have a specific target in mind.

My homicidal fantasies can be very intrusive at times when I see someone I want to kill in real life. I can become extremely focused on the target, almost to the point of obsession.

My fantasies and urges are driven by a desire for power and control. A lot of my aggression though stems from boredom and frustration. I feel a constant craving for stimulation because it's the only thing that really makes me feel alive.

I don't think anyone with such said thoughts would be as driven to exterminate someone as much as they would be to "play God." But I formulate no hypothesis, I'm simply asking questions.

Seriously, murder fantasies that are fulfilled are usually, opportunistic, vengeful, contract $, Sexually sadistic.

by ccumz

What is this god (notice I didn't capitalize) ? Who wants to play god? Need not I, I say. I don't believe in such things. lol  

You don't have to believe in god to play god. 

Of course, god-like power is just an illusion, but it's a very desirable one nonetheless.

The death of your soul?