Their is a guy I work with, who is one of those retards that likes to belittle and insult people. I happen to be one of those people. Like I have said before I am not a fighter. I lack the confindence to stand up to him. I am short in stature and not very strong. I'm fit and could run circles around his big ass, but I lack the confidence to stand up to him.
The other day when I got off work all I could do is think of things I wanted to say to him and things I wanted to do to him. Sure I could shoot his stupid ass or cut him up and feel very good about doing so. But not unlike most of society. I fear the consequences of my actions.
While sitting at home thinking about this stuff. I started soul searching into why and who I really am. I know he wasn't sitting at home thinking about me. But yet I was thinking of him. People like me when confronted with people like him. We fantasize about what we would do to them. Then we convince ourselves that the only reason we didn't kick his ass is because we would have lost our job or we would have ended up im prison for killing them. Even in the wild animals deal with this same shit. The larger more dominant animals lead the packs while animals like me follow, out of fear of what would happen if we did try to stand up to the dominant one. It is the natural order of life. You have leaders and followers. Dominant and non-dominant.
He doesn't fear the consequences as people like I do. Some guy told him to shut up while on break the other day and the guy who fucks with me stood up and got in his face and told him that after work he was going to fuck him up. Long story short. The dick beat his ass after work. Fucked that dudes eye and nose all up and he was just as big as big as the retard who busted him up.
How am I supposed to stand up to a dude twice my size without cheap shoting him. He isn't worth going to jail over or losing my job over.
