This will be my first post on the forum.
Hello everyone. Its nice to see this website and all of you out there in the world.
I am a sociopath. I don't know why or how, just that I am. when I was young i enjoyed hurting animals. Yes I knew it was wrong... i knew that murder was wrong as well yet I had the urge to do these things. I was always different and felt so alone even with people around me. I just couldn't relate.
I was always told how smart of a child i was. So I knew eventually being whatever I was... it would get me in trouble. I changed my behavior and controlled my impulses in order to survive. My rage is contained and directed as well as controlled. I now control myself and understand what I am.
This is for others out there like me. You have to adapt. You can control yourself. Believe me! if i could do it, you can! We are not bad or evil... we are just different and with strong will you can focus yourself. When you are able to understand, you can have an advantage in most situations and steer clear of or manage triggers.
I never deny or hate what I am. I am very very unique :)
Good luck out there.