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your a boy and girl at the same time? is it possible... the alienation you feel as a result from this has distanced you from Humanity, and as a result you feel like a socio?

welcome btw! 

Just be what?.   A label?.

From what you've written it simply sounds like you have no idea of what you actually want , and are happy to take on a

 label-enabled persona that you believe will either give you some incredibly magical insight, or fix your problems.

That you use such effusive prose to describe, what was in fact someone using you blatantly for their own gain, shows that you are either going for your diploma in trolling, or are wearing blinders of immense proportion.

I suspect both.

What you have written is revealing of many things.

"New here and I'd like to make the standard intro."

"I guess I'll start with the usual 'I've always felt different'."

So you have been reading about sociopathy for some time now, and you have been reading peoples' stories—presumably on M.E.'s site, here, or both. It is surely an interesting topic. Even if people aren't familiar with the term, the fascination of the public with the condition is evident by what people like to see in cinema. The acclaim which the characters of The Joker and Patrick Bateman have received are famous examples of that.

You should understand that you are not only intrigued by this condition, you idealize it.

"And when she takes off her mask her soul has a raw beauty, it evokes an image in my mind of watching a neutron star from the surface of the lifeless planet orbiting it, knowing the shine of it is the same hard radiation that's the antithesis of life."

And finally, you come full circle to become that which you idealize.

"It all leads to feel I'm ready to finally claim my label, ready to stop going in circles about it, ready to just be."

What do you think associating with this label does for you? Does it give you something to identify with while simultaneously addressing your sense of alienation?

BPD cunt. How does it feel knowing deep down how worthless you are? You mutilated your own body in an attempt to find your identity hahaha. Don't stop there. You're on the right path, finish the job and kill yourself if you wish to find what you truly are. Nothing.

Welcome :)

Have another joint luna.

You're far too sober to be handing out fairy dust and welcome cards.

Lol Scarlet from what you have written I can doubt you are a sociopath.  You might just be a very complex person.  I also suspect that a lot of what you wrote is polished bullshit

How easy was it for you to look inside yourself?

"I looked inside myself and saw only a grinning skull." Hahaha no you didn't. That's just some melodramatic nonsense you came up with on the spot. The truth is you looked inside yourself and saw a worthless nobody. You're so clueless about your own identity and so desperate to figure it out that you let your self proclaimed sociopath friend and ME's ridiculous book decide it for you. Pathetic. These lengths you've gone to just to feel good about yourself haven't really helped at all. You'll never be able to "just be" until you stop looking for quick fixes and figure out/accept who you really are. Get therapy or some shit. But If you really did have the surgery you should definitely follow Entrapment's advice and go slit your wrists in bathtub because even if you do learn to accept yourself nobody else ever will, aside from other freakshows like you and people who want to feel good about themselves by pretending to be tolerant while in the back of their minds they're thinking how repulsive you are.