Relationships and cohabiting with other homo sapiens.
My topic and question is this: Is it possible and is it possible for some and not for others. A part of me would enjoy having an ideal person in my life. That is not to say that I think I'm all that picky. I find it difficult if not impossible to live with any other creature. People can't understand me and when I'm honest about what I am; I am treated to hostility and discrimination. I find that I require a large if not absolute amount of control of everything around me. This might very well just be me. I am starting to believe that I may be forced to live alone for the remainder of my existence. Unfortunately I rent with a roommate and it has become unbearable yet again.
I've only had one somewhat successful relationship and that was because we did not live together and she was basically my puppet fuck doll. I think that only two relationship types could work for me. Someone who was absolutely submissive to me in every way. Essentially my slave; or (this is something I'm curious to try) someone who is also a very cold ruthless sociopath to give me a challenge and maybe accept and encourage my ruthlessness. They would have to sexually match me and be extremely masochistic.
I have never wanted children, pets or house plants. I enjoy garden plants that serve a purpose though.
Oddly enough a part of me desires "love" if there is such a thing and commitment. Though maybe that's just foolishness that has not been put in place.
What are everyone's thoughts? Am I better off being alone?
Please teach me more, Oh Great One.