Good evening my fellow readers,
Since I am going through some changes in my life I have decided that it would be quite reasonable to address some things that bothered me even in the slightest in the past, name them and decide whether or not these problems demand solutions. I am aware that witty comments can not be avoided, but this forum used to attract intelligent people that could come up with constructive suggestions. While everything I read is going to be taken with a grain of salt, I would greatly appreciate some innovative ideas nonetheless.
So, the first problem (in no particular order) is my tendency to feel a little inferior due to lack of knowledge on any specific matter, e.g. whilst listening to a skilled physicist I may be slightly annoyed because I am not as acknowledged in that area. If I recall correctly, it is a common thing amongst people of the fifth type (the Enneagram test), so I do not find this issue particularly surprising. One solution would be to become a Jack of all trades, master of none (although I could still be more advanced in some fields), but this would consume a lot of time and provide little results. I could also try to cope with the problem as one does not have to outsmart everyone while maintaining a conversation, but it would not change my inner feelings. On the other hand, despite I can deduct that such inferiority complex might interfere with my decisions, it is not a very huge problem and I could live with it, as I have done in the past.
Another problem that tends to grow yearly is the expectations raised by others to enhance my interactions with the opposite sex. My communication with people of both genders usually settles with exchanging thoughts and I do not wish to establish a more intimate relationship. However, despite my preferences, more than once various females attempted to form a greater bond with me (flirting, accidental bumping, eye contact and other signs of body language, etc. were involved). As stated above, this was not a huge issue when I was younger but it becomes worse. I am not a complete aloof and I respond to various attempts to commute in a proper fashion which may send a wrong message. I should also note that I am not Gay. This problem lacks decent solutions as I can not hide in my apartment forever and the only solution from the top of my head is giving in. But it would push me out of my comfort zone and might provide a negative impact for my studies as well as other attempts to improve my knowledge.
Another thing that should be addressed despite I am okay with it is my tendency to maintain a more conservative and strict form of social interacting. Usually I am very secretive and prefer asking other people questions rather than answering myself. Also I am rather judgmental and if I consider something as rude or foolish, it is very unlikely that I would engage in such act (e.g. I condemn people that chatter out loud in public transports, consequently, I do not do that myself). The main downside of this habit is that I am effectively limiting myself in some areas, which might seem to be a problem even though I am not feeling stressed about it.
Lastly, I tend to feel a little uncomfortable while being surrounded by random people. I would say that it has to do more with my habit to seek information rather than some kind of fear of humanity as I tend to be annoyed by the people with sunglasses (sunglasses make it impossible to see their eyes and thus hide some information) and so on. Moreover, as I have stated above, I am less forgiving of people that act in a way I consider inappropriate which also adds up. My slightly Misanthropic point of view plays a little role on this and presumably other problems as well.
These would be the main or only things that I would like to ponder over because aside from that I am more or less content with my life. If you have any ideas, please, do not hesitate to share!
Thank you for your time, hopefully it was not wasted.
