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Sadistic tendencies. These may or may not be associated with psychopathy. However, the fact that you've come here to ask to - and potentially relate to - people who may be experiencing similar fantasies as you suggests that you're not comfortable about the idea that you might not be "normal." Do you think that that might be possible?

by Systematic

"in a way i also want somebody to try and attack me just so i could kill them or whatever i feel like."

Be careful for what you ask for, unless you have experience in this sort of thing?

 ^ This.

When I was fifteen a fat savage from school attacked me from behind. I reacted on instinct only, not a real desire to hurt or maim her. I was just pissed that the coward would attack me from behind. She couldn't fight so it wasn't a fair fight. But she picked it and she presumably picked the battleground too, so she had those advantages. She was fine - a broken nose; that's all. I've carried weapons on my person before but you must be absolutely certain that you can use them without hesitation. You'll be screwed if you hesitate after drawing a weapon on an opponent. I do understand what it's like to want someone to attack you, though. The process for applying to medical school is an arduous one in Australia - all in all, it takes about six months to receive confirmation that you've been accepted. One day I woke up absolutely convinced that I hadn't made the cut. It was that day that I provoked a pro-life hysteric outside a fertility clinic to attacking me. Again, it wasn't a fair fight - I"m an ex-gymnast with Martial Arts and boxing training experience, and she was a scrawny old hag, but I made sure she grabbed me first (after I harangued her about her insecurities). I've also lost my fair share of fights for reasons not dissimilar to this, which of course was entirely my fault. So yeah, be careful.

im quite comfortable with the fact that i am different. I just find it interesting to find people who are like this because i get bored talking to myself:(. I cant exactly talk to friends or family because then they would treat me differently. Haha i wouldnt be able to get away with the usual stuff:). When i was younger i thought that everyone was like me. Aspd bpd that is. 

I don't find getting power by force and threat pleasurable and exciting at all. I like making my prey severely obsessed with me, think about me 24 / 7, and become a needy submissive dependent toy in my hands, that turns me on :3

I used to do that alot. On kik mostly hehe when i was 16 i has so many kik subs :)

And not just any subs . These were the ones that you could tell them to video cutting their nipples or clit and they'd do it:)

power leads to responsibility and i do not like that. because if i lose interest in the power i have, the responsibility makes it a chore. But it can still be worth it. Depends what the power is.

What stops you from just dropping the responsibility?

this is the thing that depends on the the type of power. some you can just drop. other can have consequences.

Not really. I also do not like arrogant men. Grew up with them. 

What is it about you making either fat or scrawny people want to attack you haha

On topic, regarding what TC said. There are many people who desire an excuse for violence. It's not that hard to find that excuse, in my opinion. Still, very few act on that desire without being "forced" to.

I think life is perceived as too monotonous and boring by the average man. There's something ancestral and thrilling about raw violence that the average man hungers for. Something about the civilized ways of life that the animal isn't 100% comfortable with. Fight or flight instinct has deep roots inside any creature, it's probably the most ancient, and our ancestors used to make great use of it. Giving in to those primal desires can be compared to very few other things we can experience.