I've always felt different. I have always felt better and smarter than anyone I have ever met. Recently I did a project on Antisocial behavioral disorder and found a lot of things that described me. I dont really care if I am or not but I figured a little confirmation wouldn't hurt anyone. I have always had dark little fantasies about killing anything when I was little I use to laugh and enjoy smashing fishes heads with rocks. I love animals but something about smashing these fish brought me so much joy. Recently I broke up with my girlfriend she was begging and crying why but I didn't even blink. I was just cold and calculated. I didn't like her much but I just lived for the sex and free weed i got from her. I dont regret it at all. I've always been super charming and well liked, I'm popular at school and nobody can see the real me, if there is one. I pretend to love my family but I just lack the warmth most people feel about there families, quiet frankly I feel that warmth when I do something great and its only for myself. I have been reading American pycho and it is very good and I feel similar to poor patrick. No I'm not going to murder people but his violent thought remind me of my own. I lie just to see if I can get away with it. I use women for sex. My friends all adore me and I like them but I can never speak my full mind due to my violent thoughts. I always thought I was normal but now I see I'm something different. Do you guys think I'm a sociopath? I dont care either way, I'm smarter than most people anyway but I figured I would ask. Thanks guys :)
Yes you lucky dog!!
I think the best indicator is "I pretend to love my family".
I mean, if you weren't a sociopath, why the fuck would you "pretend" that? Eh?
So welcome, an don't worry, the violent part is totally a red herring, plus emotional violence (like what you did to your girlfriend) is is so much worse anyways ;-).
So welcome to the new world of who you really are.
Isn't it interesting how you used to think EVERYONE was pretending to love? Turns out, and this was and still is a shock to me, most people actually FEEL love and CARE about people, they're not just pretending.
Kind of amazing eh?
Sounds like you got stuck with the narciscistic shit too, and for that I'm sorry -- that's really no fun as it takes a fuckload of energy to maintain and means you end up needing poor empaths more than you would otherwise.
That's what I'm trying to ditch so I can just chill a bit.
What are you going to do about your new discovery of who you are?
by Americanpycho36I've always felt different. I have always felt better and smarter than anyone I have ever met. Recently I did a project on Antisocial behavioral disorder and found a lot of things that described me. I dont really care if I am or not but I figured a little confirmation wouldn't hurt anyone. I have always had dark little fantasies about killing anything when I was little I use to laugh and enjoy smashing fishes heads with rocks. I love animals but something about smashing these fish brought me so much joy. Recently I broke up with my girlfriend she was begging and crying why but I didn't even blink. I was just cold and calculated. I didn't like her much but I just lived for the sex and free weed i got from her. I dont regret it at all. I've always been super charming and well liked, I'm popular at school and nobody can see the real me, if there is one. I pretend to love my family but I just lack the warmth most people feel about there families, quiet frankly I feel that warmth when I do something great and its only for myself. I have been reading American pycho and it is very good and I feel similar to poor patrick. No I'm not going to murder people but his violent thought remind me of my own. I lie just to see if I can get away with it. I use women for sex. My friends all adore me and I like them but I can never speak my full mind due to my violent thoughts. I always thought I was normal but now I see I'm something different. Do you guys think I'm a sociopath? I dont care either way, I'm smarter than most people anyway but I figured I would ask. Thanks guys :)