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A great deal of stalkers are borderlines. Crazy dangerous types. I'm not saying that's what you are, but I wouldn't be surprised. I'm also willing to bet this new woman will also end up being idealized by you, and as such- be a fabric of more imagination than anything else. Good luck breaking the cycle. 

Good for you. Just need to make sure this new person of yours doesn't become your new target of sorts, a relapse of old thoughts and habits, and then that chapter will remain closed instead of becoming a cruel brick joke.

You were stalking a woman?

No. Surely not.

You could always just go all out with the whole imaginary idea of her that you have in your head and just base a tulpa off of her. Then she really would exist only in your head.

by Systematic

After all these years, the tie between me and the woman I've stalked has been broken. I'm relieved to know I'm no longer bounded by some sentimental obsession.  My process of realization is a bit intresting, figured I'd share.

Within a 4 and a half year span, I had only seen my target 5 times physically. Due to the distance between us all of our interactions were digital. Thousands of texts and a few skype sessions were all I had of her. Online interactions still left out most of her personality, eventually I subconsciously substituted these vacancies with more desirable traits. When she finally succumbed to a relationship(which I referenced in a previous topic) it lead to disastrous results.

I didn't love her, I cared for the utopian I had fabricated in my mind. I broke off the relationship immediately,  disgusted by this contradiction. I felt it easy to leave her then, but I had spent so much time putting this lie on a pedestal that I still cared for this figment of my imagination.  How are you obsessed with someone who only exists in your head? It's taken me months to figure myself out now. But after countless hours of meditation and physical conditioning I've come to terms with it.

I thought I was going insane, but now I just feel numb to it. I've straightened up, picking up the slack I left behind in those months. I've met someone new as well, she's truly amazing. I have no regrets about this entire experience. Oddly.

Well, that closes that chapter of my life.

 

what an awesome fulfilling life you lead .. 

Do your relationships often lead to "disastrous results". You said in the stalking thread that all the women you've been with previously weren't a match for you. I think you've been unlucky in love. You ask how you can be obsessed with someone who only exists in your head, I think it's because your imaginary love life is a better alternative to your real one. When you finally started something with this woman it just lead to yet another failed relationship and now you're disillusioned. When your new relationship fucks up you'll probably just find another woman you don't really know anything about to use in your ideal love fantasy and the stalking will start all over again. If I were you I'd just get one of those mail order brides. With the language barrier you could pretend they're whover you want them to be and never learn otherwise.

"When your new relationship fucks up you'll probably just find another woman you don't really know anything about to use in your ideal love fantasy and the stalking will start all over again. "

I don't know, I more inclined to disagree with you because my reasons for stalking my original woman were genuine.  Part of me hopping into other relationships were in order to find another one like her, there simply wasn't anyone with her traits or anything vaguely resmebling her for the matter. 

"I don't know, I more inclined to disagree with you because my reasons for stalking my original woman were genuine."

Genuine?

Genuine as is in we shared enough of the same personality that guaranteed a successful relationship.