you are a joke. every time i read your words i smell the stink of fear in them.
no matter how much you want it to be true, you will never be the man that tormented you. you are just a nothing. rubbish thrown away and forgotten because of the insignificant welfare mother you are; fat and unwanted.
So I can control all of them. I like to engage in sadism but it seems like no one falls for it.
no one'falls for it' because it's an act. we are all animals. our instincts tell us what to fear. people are fools but they can sense danger.
i think people know. i think when you look at someone they know deep down who you are.
Two people can issue word for word the same threat to the same person, but you will get two different reactions, fear or impudence. it is natural to avoid a predator, and a lamb can not act as a lion and not be scoffed at.
Not proud of it. Do not go around saying what I would like to do with most people. I have only plans within plans and plots within plots. And when my day comes oh what a joyous occasion will be had by me. As I witness so much destruction and doom. Hopefully from afar.
And certainly feel no shame, no guilt and no remorse about this or anything I have ever done in my life. We all have small moments we are proud of and cement our foundation as master or slave. Servant or leader. Predator or prey.
Or even the smaller things in life such as an offhand comment that makes someone's eyes brimmed with tears. An unintentional triumph but a delicious morsel of pain to cherish no doubt.
This all life is about. Life is one big Sado-masochistic event. I want to assume the role of Master and everyone else assumes the position.
LOL. Nice? Since when did anyone have the right to my friendship and grace? Never. I am a cold individual. I can fake niceness well enough. Oh you had a bad day too bad. Inside I am laughing or totally apathetic. Ever hear of the term "mask of sanity"? But my affection and love? Never. My respect yes can be earned.
