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I realized that my thinking pattern differs from others when I was really young, but I kept most of my thoughts for myself. 
When I went to middle school, I just thought I was smarter than the others, but in my final year at high school I realized that it wasn't just that. A friends little brother died in an accident and she cut the friendship because I didn't get what the big deal was.

Still in high school a girl with a blank personality (she just asapted everyone and anything n order to survive), tried to befriend me, and I painted her little mind-canvas in my favourite images. She went totally mad and adapted mental illnesses I set on display for her, she is now in therapy.

One of my parents got diagnosed with a deadly illness during my finals, and I didn't feel sorry for them at all. 
They had sent me off to therapy before, that ended up on my psychologiyst signing me up for a analysis at the nearby psychiatry, with no outcome either. (Mostly because I am really not as stupid not to see through ICD-10 classification tests, seriously.)

I went through some relationships, to find out, if there was someone out there who would think a little more like me. Nope.

I moved away and got friends with a psychiatry student in his final year. 
He diagnosed me, and that's it. 

by Daddy

Well, there was the animal abuse at around age 9... I knew it was wrong, and not to get caught... I was fascinated by the ability to cause pain and manipulate the animal with traumatic experiences and see the reactions they gave.

But I guess the first time I did something that made me think I was... off... was when I was around 14, I told an adult aunt I could make her feel pain and control how she felt at which point I was challenged that I couldn't make her cry. So I proceeded to list off all of her weak areas and broke her down psychologically in the cruelest way possible.

That was around the time that I learned how to manipulate my and other peoples emotions... and I think that was the start of it for me.

 

I'm sorry everyone. After reading this I can't bite my tongue. You are sooooooooo full of shit. lol 

I realized I was different from a very young age. I was cold and distant as a child. I never bonded with my parents or other kids, nor did I have any desire to. 

I started having violent thoughts when I was young. I would draw pictures of people being killed. Then I grew a little older and started killing things myself just to watch them die. Death fascinated me. Not the end result as such, but the process of dying.

As I got older I abused and killed many of my own pets, mostly out of anger though. I didn't care about watching them die. I just wanted to stop them from doing whatever they were doing that was pissing me off me at the time.

I Started getting into trouble a lot when I was a teenager and young adult. I was too irresponsible to hold down a job for long and too emotionally shallow and distant to maintain a long term relationship. Most people were/are only good for what I can use them for.

I committed my first crime when I was 7 and committed numerous other crimes over the years, some of which could have sent me to prison for many years. I've never felt any guilt or remorse over the things I've done.

These are only some of things I've done. You'd think those things alone would make me realize I am a sociopath, but they didn't. I had no idea what a sociopath is until I was diagnosed with AsPD (and Schizoid PD at the time as well). After discussing the disorder and the psychopathic traits I display with my psychologist, only then did I realize that I am a sociopath.

Do I think he got the diagnosis wrong? I would think not with the impact AsPD has had on my life, but who knows. Anything is possible. I won't be getting diagnosed again. Not unless I'm forced to by the courts for some reason anyway.

Rid yourselves of all the offenses you have committed, and get a new heart and a new spirit.

Why will you die? For I take no pleasure in the death of anyone, declares the Sovereign LORD.

Repent and live!

(Ezekiel 18:31-32)

What's so hard to believe about that? It's true.

by Feelnothing256

 

by Daddy

What's so hard to believe about that? It's true.

Whatever you say Professor Xavier. lol

When I was 9 my psychologist told me I was not only a sociopath, but a psychopath and I spent the next 4 years in amanatee palms youth service, the only reason this ever occurred was because I failed in my attempt to strangle my brother. I've tortured animals not for pure pleasure but for a high curiosity level I seem to have had ever since I was a child.

At about two months of age. I realized then that it was all about me and I enjoyed pooping in my diapers just to watch others clean it up. 

Not until recently.

I"m almost 40 now and my last girlfriend worked in the psychiatric field so I started reading about it and it opened my eyes.

I looked back over the past 20 yrs of my life and the puzzle pieces soon fell together.

It wasn't really a shock or anything, I guess deep down inside I already knew.

I'm not a violent person, and rarely do anything illegal or could be considered weird behaviour let alone get in trouble with the cops or stuff like that. I blend in perfectly.

I'm the charming/manipulator type I guess and to be honest, I love it most of the time when I think about all the stuff I got away with.

You poor fool. You don't need to be a super hero to read someones emotions or understand what hurts them psychologically. You simply need to be observant. As I can see through your inability to distinguish truth from a lie. This must be a difficult concept for your small mind to wrap itself around.