I am a very solitary person, I rarely mingle with others, when i do it's only for a few hours then i can't wait to be alone. that is a problem. i would like to be more social, though it's so draining on my energy. i feel like im hanging out with vampires and they just zap my energy. they are nice people but i struggle with connection.
I also look inward when by myself to see whats happening with my attitude, i like to fix and change parts of my personality to be more pleasant or more adult about my persona. so im actually creating a new image of myself, the bubble that holds the views of the world i see myself in is morphing constantly into something more solid.
I have a long way to go to be self accepted though i do have times where i am ecstatic about life in general even though it's dark and ugly there are good things that keep me going and hopeful for the future to come.
I had a bit of a breakdown when i was talking with pink01, i was feeling really low and she picked me up emotionally and really really helped me not be fearful and genuinely tried to cheer me up and that woke me up. people are naturally good and do want to help.
-Kane