Why won't you seek help if you're so miserable? i hate doctors they're stupid and i noticed they go by a lot of "history" of wrong facts and if they start new they will then compare me to my fathers behavior and if my mother is around they will believe her lies and they pattern match to the most common thing rather than checking everything
atm every doctor is labeling kids with adhd, bipolar, autism
it's their favourite fucking thing to do all they care about is seeing the next kid and getting their big salary
rather than genuinely getting my view
and i don't want to share my view i hate doctors.................................................... i didn't want to be tested i don't ever want to be tested
i just did online tests because i was trying to fit in with SOCIAL NORMS of this forum and psychforum and sarah also asked me to do a sociopath test i just did it to make her happier i didn't like tests
it is herd mentality what they do
"less bitter about your parents." when i was 3 i used to love my parents even my dad
when i was 5-6 after years of hearing my dads talking non-stop i didn't like him anymore
after my mums abuse i also stopped loving her
i used to love my parents but they don't deserve that anymore for how they neglected and abused me
i wasn't born perfect but how i was raised and the environments i lived in made me different that what i could of been from positive environments
i hate negativity
if someone is spamming me with negativity i literally would be happy for them to die sometimes even thinking of doing it my self to them
i just want positivity..not fake positivity i want real stuff otherwise everyone else can get fucked and suffer how they make me suffer
and if that makes me cruel for treating everyone how they treat me because they are too stupid to see their behavior well maybe i'm cruel idc