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I started going inpatient when I was 13. Ha! I win!

Quite the intresting username.  Lol

I'm not sure on whether or not you acknowledge its comedic value.

Yeah, I thought my username was funny.

At least my username isn't Skinhead14/88

I have a sense of humour too, damn it.

"I have a sense of humour too, damn it."

Good to hear. It's a rarity in these parts.

by Peckerwood

Does anyone else here with ASPD feel the same way about violence? I'm sure many of you do. What do you like to do? How does it make you feel?

I find certain types of violence to be pleasurable. Killing animals, on the other hand, doesn't do anything for me. I have killed some of my own pets and never experienced any particular emotion from it.

There are times where I experience a build up of aggression and it makes me feel this intense urge to go out and kill someone. Without a desire to kill, fighting for the sake of fighting doesn't particularly interest me. That's not to say I haven't been in quite a few fights over the years. Those fights were always started by other people though. I have a habit of pissing people off and I refuse to back down when threatened, which usually results in them lashing out at me.

While I have acted violently on impulse a few times myself, none of those situations turned into a fight. I seem to have a lot more self-control then some of the people I manage to piss off, but then I never really get as angry as they do. My anger is more of a cool, calm anger. Well, not always.

Killing animals used to do it for me. Saying as I get into fights on a regular basis, I'm craving something a little more brutal. I think I like you Thrill Kill. You are very wise it would seem.

Violent thoughts of blood running and raining from the walls are a delicious release from what ails the psyche in the moment that it fires into the lust for mauling that which earns my concentration. Brief are the moments of the thirst, as the sense of Godlike omnipotence is granted in the giving of life based on my mercy as opposed to the simple oblivion. Sometimes, I have killed, from a position of mercy but to kill that which is weaker is a cowardice of which guilty I am not and find revulsion for those that do. And there in turns the lust into a thrill.

Nah.

Violence is only instrumental to me.

I guess I'm always too preoccupied with the result, rather than the way it is being done.

Though the chase always brings a momentary thrill.

On the other hand, revenge is like a delicious ice cream.

I have a pitbull that is allergic to the grass I think. He breaks out bad whenever he goes outside. The vet told me that he would have to take some samples and blood, and send them off to be tested. Then he would be able to perscribe what I need to fix it. I would like to take him out back and shoot him. That would be the simplest solution. The dog is a good dog it does what he is told. But I still want to kill him and get another dog without allergies. I would have to tell everyone that he ran away. They know how I am i'm not sure if they would believe me tho. I soooo wish everyone that knows me would just disappear. Then I wouldn't be in this situation.

I refuse to spend my money on something that can be solved with a bullet or knife.