Doing some self-analysis. Assuming I'm ordinary, but want an unbiased opinion as I am averse to relying purely on self-diagnosis (if at all). Definitely not a sociopath, possible narcissistic tendencies. Experiences with sexually violent bullying and chronic dissociation since early childhood. Attended mental health services from thirteen to twenty, psychotherapist theorised I was BPD but decided against this, tests leant towards schizotypal tendencies, online and official alike. Institutionalised twice based on overwhelming dissociative symptoms. INFJ (Introverted Intuitive Feeling Judging) type 4 (Individualist) with a 5th type wing (Skeptic), EII (Ethical-Intuitive Intratim)-1Ne. Personality shifts three times a year. Consistent personality traits however include feelings of superiority and a lot of magical thinking (not always acted upon, rather deeply analysed and stored away).
November to January: Hyper-sensitive to social situations - smallest perceived criticism of self, or perceived shift in mood in a person or group sends me over the edge into self-harm (a kind of hyper-empathy?). An intense need for validation. Relationships at their most intense (I become somewhat of a psychic vampire at this time). Socialising is petrifying. Decisions based almost entirely on emotion.
February to May: Little or no empathy, little or no emotion - predominantly boredom. Gives way to impulsive unprotected sexual activity with strangers. Near-complete self-distancing from close relationships. I become dissociated from aspects of my identity (political beliefs, being transgender, etc) and see them as just parts of the artifice that is me - not in a bad way, in a fun way, as though I'm creating this huge lie, and enjoying it. Socialising is enjoyable, but experienced entirely as a game, as though people are pawns, and based on the evidence I review I am very good at manipulating and perpetuating charisma and confidence (same with the rest of the year, but the inner dynamic within myself changes). Up until two years ago I would around this time convince people of ridiculous lies in order to entertain myself, I no longer do this (but will often fantasise ones anyway and decide against them out of laziness). Decisions based almost entirely on logic.
June to September/October: At highest functioning, a mixture of the previous two. Mental health the best it can be depending on the year.
Again, I'm assuming I'm ordinary enough, simply with an introverted disposition and schizotypal - or rather, "eccentric" (how I hate that term!) - tendencies. Given the timeline it may be that I just have some symptoms of seasonal affectual disorder. Fascinating forum by the way, and sorry for the essay.