because you seem to be rejecting the idea that you're past your prime ('only 41').
I fully accept the fact that I'm not young anymore, physically. I still very much am though mentally.
After all I've been through in life, I'm actually quite proud that I've lived this long. My life has been threatened numerous times and I've done things that could have killed me. So, 41 to me is an achievement.
One day you may just get to my age and realize that being middle-aged really isn't so bad.