He's not going to simply 'understand' himself, he either needs to be told or he'll never know
What he want is to have attention, get accepted into the 'community' and to have people like him, and so far he has only achieved the first one, which as he went about getting the attention in the wrong way makes everybody on the forum hate him. If he wants to come on here and have actual conversations with people thats fine, but if all he wants to do is annoy everyone to get attention and 'validation' he isn't as pathetic as he really is, he can go do that someplace else