How do you feel about it?
I don't feel anything about it.
My mother pays for certain things for me and I certainly don't feel any sense of obligation to pay her back. I used to think she was a psychopath because she rarely shows emotion, but lately she's been pretty insecure and has been easy to take advantage of.
I've also gotten about 6 weeks behind in my rent and it never bothered me (I was spending the money on things I wanted instead). Hell, I even got out of having to pay it all back when I moved because there was no property lease. It was a private rental.
You rent by the week? You're also in debt to your government, Missy... The disability checks for shit. I wasn't so much talkin about money as services. I too could create less about the money I owe to anyone or any organization, but service (favors) rendered I feel should be obligated. To get things you have to give things... I don't like giving. I don't like being in someone's pocket, so to speak. Do you pay them back (services rendered) or do you eliminate the source of the debt? Just wondering...
So, basically, you're still Mummy's little girl.
There's no way in hell that a psychopath would have ever, ever supported you in any way.
You're weak, Thrill. You're really, really weak. If your mother was a psychopath, you could've left (and not just with the first guy who promised you his heart forever). You could've run as far as your funds and your legs would've taken you. You certainly wouldn't crawl back to her, begging her for help when your own attempts at cultivating the relationships you wished you could've had with her (and BTW, where's your Daddy at?) failed so horrendously.