by Thrill KillWhat your mother and daughter say doesn't matter, because my mother and everyone I know says the same about me. And I'm a cuddly teddy bear, you know that! But a very insecure, defensive one. Just like you say. ;)
The difference between you and I is that I've never been very affectionate, not even as a young child and I know that because my mother told me. I never bonded with my mother because I just never had the desire to. Where as, you seem to have a desire for affection, yet hide it as a type of defense mechanism. Which then makes me wonder why.
What happened to you to want to hide your affection from your own family?
Huh? The person who claims I'm cold and indifferent, also hates being hugged by my grandma because she hates being close. It's projection in my mom's case. She's diagnosed NPD. As for me, I can act affectionate, I'm more sensitive being touched on my skin elsewhere than on my penis. So I'm actually very cuddly, I get off on it sexually. I orgasm weird.
As far as bonding, its not that I want to hide it, I want to be able to bond, I just haven't. Maybe I will someday. Then the people I mess around with, including my ASPD ex who I think was just teasing me, won't complain so much that I'm distant. It's funny you jump to hiding it and more being defensive.