Not so weird really. Smell is processed in the same area as higher thinking and morals. Even an overall destruction of neurons can cause deficits in smell like in Alzheimer's you might lose specific smells.
My sense of smell is perfect, BTW.
Honestly I think you just fantasize about murdering 20 something year old women because you feel that is when your own life changed when you had a child. In a way I think your murder fantasies are warped suicide fantasies.
The question is how much of it is nostalgic self love and how much is bitterness?
I've fantasized about killing men, women and children alike. I only fantasize about killing women more because they appeal to me more sexually.
I find it amusing that you think they're warped suicide fantasies. I can't even figure out how you came to that conclusion.
I'm not bitter towards those I desire to kill. They're just objects.
I came to that conclusion because you said you entered a beauty contest when you were younger and also you had your kid at approximately age 24. Your fantasies that I've seen involve degrading women at that age (what you probably view as your best years in life) and dominating men (possible resentment toward ex, more likely wanting to view yourself as powerful).
So your fixation could be from feeling that is when your own life symbolically "died".
Did you fantasize about elaborate sexual murders when you were in your early 20s and if so what were they about?
Didn't we already address this subject... A couple times? The correlation being traumatic injury or lack o development to the frontal lobes effecting more than just sense of smell but the personality as well? I tend to be hyper-sensitive in all my senses... But shallow in affect. I don't buy into the sense of smell thing...
by hypercubeI came to that conclusion because you said you entered a beauty contest when you were younger
I'm not sure what that has to do with anything.
and also you had your kid at approximately age 24. Your fantasies that I've seen involve degrading women at that age (what you probably view as your best years in life) and dominating men (possible resentment toward ex, more likely wanting to view yourself as powerful).
Actually, the majority of my fantasies focus on females between the ages of 15 and 30. Though, it varies, depending on how much they appeal to me sexually. I've gone both younger and older than that age-range. The average age of the women I've wanted to kill is actually closer to 18 than 24.
I don't have any resentment towards my ex. He failed at trying to kill me. What's there to resent? I don't dwell on the past and I don't judge all other men based on one man's actions.
So your fixation could be from feeling that is when your own life symbolically "died".
lol. I've never felt like my life has "died".
Did you fantasize about elaborate sexual murders when you were in your early 20s and if so what were they about?
Yes, but they had become sexual before then. When I stopped fantasizing about killing my family and started focusing on random people in my late teens, it added a sexual element to my fantasies. Mind you, I was having violent thoughts as far back as early childhood, but they're weren't directed at any specific person back then. It was only when I got older that I started focusing on real people.
My fantasies initially involved stabbing people and burning them to death. That lasted for many years, until I added torture to the mix to enhance the fantasy sexually.