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Borderlines are supposed to feel depressed and anxious more than anything. And they seek to end it through impulsive acts like sex, drugs, etc. When I do drugs it's either cause I'm bored or for something to do.

I never get attached to anyone. I've had women say I was the love of their life but honestly from the moment we met I was just pretending to be someone I wasn't. Soon enough they find out and they get their fair share of abuse from me. Often coming running back over and over only for more punishment. Makes little wonder all of the girls I've dated have been total masochists and co-dependent types. Or low self-esteem. A lot of them were also sexual abuse victims. I'd have no major qualms with rape, molestation yes because what's the point if you don't get your dick wet?

I don't have a bad relationship with my mother. In fact I've totally apathetic to my parents until I spend all my money and need $.

I can feel pretty anxious sometimes but who doesn't if they do things they aren't supposed to. In fact I find am I become so anxious about something but I can't let go of the urge to just do it no matter the consequences.

I haven't been diagnosed as anything ever. Just high-functioning normal guy.

I don't feel like a broken person I can get pretty depressed with life but more often then not what I feel is pure rage.

I do doubt I am a psychopath even though as a kid I enjoy killing animals and shoplifting and drinking.

How old are you clownpenis? If you're over 18, high functioning and having to ask your parents for money don't go very well together.

Dude, if you're going to borrow and bum other people's money, don't blow it: do what the rich folks do.

Making a living off investing "other people's money" into real estate and retiring on passive income.

Then you can party all you want to while the money comes in from monthly rentals.

It's a shame so many people who get into real estate "thinking they are good with people" lose their shirts because they won't play hardball with negotiating money, or evicting people for nonpayment to keep their income flowing. 

And the people who would be good at sticking to business -- because they aren't "too nice" about late rent or taking people to court -- blow their money on drinking and whatnot.

If you are good at asking people for money, you should find a way to build a legit business by getting "other people" to invest. Not all people know how to get money out of people. Just watch what you spend it on.

Wow you are smart with money. You must be Jewish.

You know in America who is smart with money? Immigrants. There are a lot of immigrants who come from other countries and have a good work ethic.

Hard work an investing is very smart. It has nothing to do with being Jewish.

Emily, I just had to respond to this as I have written before to you that I have been a landlord for 17 years now.

But it isn't all just sitting back and collecting money, in the beginning you must work really, really hard and it does take a lot of discipline to be really successful.

Would you be interested in learning how to do this? I would not mind helping you, through the years I have helped other landlords who were just starting out to get successful.

Due to current tax laws and government the way things are going, I don't think it would be as easy as it was when I started. Maybe you are well on your way but I would not mind helping you, I have been very successful and it is a very good idea for anyone who is self-motivated, disciplined and doesn't like to work for others.

It has allowed me the freedom to return to school and finish earning my degrees. I am preparing for my final this week, lots of work!

Also I enjoy your posts and am glad you are here, if only I could master the computer like you!

In response to your post, I am curious what has made you so angry and bitter in life and how you got to this point? You mentioned that you were a really nice and naïve person at one time. Care to share?

So for you it's just "something to do"?

The borderline I knew the most closely would do things to try to make the overemotional bottling stop. Sex, feelings of love, even drugs, it was both a distraction (if not a vacation) from it and a means of uncorking the shaken champagne bottle that was her life.

Smart as hell with little to no emotional IQ and very little impulse control. It looked painful.

op, you are not borderline. I've known many. They can get very attached, but also deal in many variations of black & white thinking. Idealize, but then devalue/hate. They feel emotions very deeply, (try being around them during a meltdown) and can often fully embody what they're feeling, especially sexually (which can be fun)...when they "love" you they truly love, but it is never sustained. If you've never felt attached, even if only temporary, it is unlikely you're BPD.