Hello,
I guess its time for me to introduce myself. You all can call me David. I've lurked here for quite a while, reading of the post and trying to find understanding of who and what i am. I've finally decided to join in and hopefully be accepted. I must apologize to Hypercube and SlimeyLimey if I ruined any of your fun. I love animals
I don't actually believe I am a sociopath, at least not quite yet. I do believe I have a full range of emotions, but I also believe I have the ability to turn them on and off at will. I don't know if this is true or if it is just an extreme form of cognitive empathic mimicry. I can realize when some thing is funny or sad and choose whether to laugh wholeheartedly until I'm in tears or remain completely unmoved by the most horrible things or even physical pain. I have a very keen ability blend and assimilate with most groups and people from all walks of life and cultures. My friendships are pretty diverse. there are rare periods when i'm completely numb to the world and cant turn it on at all. I call this my "recharge time".
My main drives in life are knowledge and experiences. I have no regards for money or power. In fact, I've come to realize the less I have of the latter the less separation there is between me and most people and more easier it is to infiltrate target areas.
But I do have a darkside. I am most intrigued by pain and suffering. i don't mean in masochistic or sadistic terms, just the pain and suffering people deal with on a daily basis. What makes them the way they are, how it has and continues to change their being. I guess more in psychological effect terms. I also have very keen senses for discovering most peoples pain and how to use it, for good or bad.
I also have my own. I am an avid hunter and use this as the outlet for my darkest desires. Sorry to anyone that was offended by the pic of the dead squirrel because it was real. I have quite a fetish for knives and I take great pleasure in the acts of cutting and feeling of cool steel upon warm flesh. So, I can easily keep contained to within my hunting, but I do realize i may have very unhealthy enjoyment to this aspect.
i don't know what else to say about myself so feel free to comment or ask further questions.
David
