Chaotic, calculating, competitive, destructive, primal, predatory, selfish, self-absorbed, indifferent, unemotional, manipulative, ego driven.
It's funny that you think you have a choice in the matter. As if the thoughts of your ego are relevant or even have any influence over your subconscious. Your thoughts are processed first by your subconscious and then by you. Most of what you do and say is dictated by a superior consciousness without you ever knowing. You are no more than a slave to the will of your subconscious. And yes.. I do enjoy torturing you with this knowledge.
All you've done is confirm the facts. The ego resists and lives in denial while the subconscious lives in a state of order. Order is not control. The subconscious seeks no personal control over others. That is the ego
Everything you will ever say is common. The ego seeks a more random existence but the subconscious lives in a state of order you have yet to comprehend correctly. Something can have order without it being directly related to control. Order is simply structure.
And it really doesn't matter if you agree or not. What I preach is commonly practiced with or without your consent.
It's fascinating to watch your ego struggle with this. It's exactly what your ego is programmed to do. Then you admit seeking structure but you yourself don't like structure... yet you admit seeking it for a since of comfort? Or rather you admit that you unconsciously seek structure.
You are right about one thing. You control nothing. Your ego may tell you different but that still means nothing. The aspects of your life are controlled by a superior conscious and unlike you and your silly rebellion.. it has order. It has to have order.. it's responsible for keeping you ALIVE.
I'm not asking you to believe me. Read a few books on the matter.. do some research. I enjoy the fact that some of you will in fact do the research and to your horror (why horror I don't know) you'll realize the truth. Reading books is better than internet searches IMO.
It always comes down to peoples emotional fears preventing them from seeing clearly. I shouldn't do this...
You have two arteries in your neck that go to your brain. If they are collapsed you will instantly pass out. However, if those arteries remain collpased you will die within a matter of seconds. No pain, no struggle, no suffering. Humans are frail and even without weapons I could easily take your life. Thats gotta be scary. Knowing none of you have guns... would just make it that much easier for me to break in your house, sneak in your smelly room and put your hand in warm water and wait for you to wake up peeing. Then take a picture and post if on eBay.
But thats what your fear wants to hear... besides the eBay part. People are so fixated on that. Asking me what I think a serial killer thinks... like how the hell would I know? I don't do that crazy crap.
I guess God trusts me... more than he trusts you. Afterall he gave me free will but you not so much. He knew you had to be controlled. He couldn't trust you without the constraints you have. Cause what you fear.. is what you would do in my place and not me at all. Your kind would kill eachother given my abilities. I know you would. You ** near kill eachother as it is.