Check out this link on Millon's Subtypes: http://millon.net/taxonomy/summary.htm and tell me if any of these describe your personality to some degree.
The ones I can relate to are...
Affectless Schizoid (compulsive features)
- Passionless
- Unresponsive
- Unaffectionate
- Chilly
- Uncaring
- Unstirred
- Unexcitable
- Unperturbed
- Cold; all emotions diminished
Unprincipled Narcissist (antisocial features)
- Deficient conscience
- Unscrupulous
- Amoral
- Disloyal
- Fraudulent
- Deceptive
- Arrogant
- Exploitive
- Dominating
- Contemptuous
Malignant Paranoid (sadistic features)
- Belligerent
- Cantankerous
- Intimidating
- Callous
- Tyrannical; hostility vented primarily in fantasy
- projects own venomous outlook onto others
Malevolent Antisocial (sadistic, paranoid features)
- Belligerent
- Mordant
- Rancorous
- Vicious
- Malignant
- Brutal
- Anticipates betrayal and punishment
- Truculent
- Callous
- Fearless
- Guiltless
I can relate to the Reputation Defending Antisocial (narcissistic features) as well to some degree.
Tyrannical Sadist (negativistic features)
- Relishes menacing and brutalizing others, forcing them to cower and submit
- Verbally cutting and scathing
- Accusatory and destructive
- Intentionally surly
- Abusive
- Inhumane
- Unmerciful