I don't know how to word all of this correctly. If there are typos and such I could care less.
Been hitting a real dark place again lately. Delusions and darkness surround me. I'm betting pulled at all angles. Just a hit would be great, or the deep slide of a blade. I went from human to empty shell again. There is no humor, no fear, no sorrow. Just this pit in my soul. I feel worthless iI can't believe I let myself get here again. The climb to the surface is long and hard. I've been socializing more often than usual. Seeing friends, talking to girls. I felt so human. Now I'm bored of it all. Nothing interests me. And nothing would be worse than more Human interaction. I am strung out everybody and taking the darkness with open arms. I taste the sweetness, but yet it consumes me. I'm death obsessed, watching snuff films. They turn me on. The sounds of gushing blood... mm I get excited thinking of it.
Maybe this shell is where I belong.