sup all. the more I become invovled with and interact with people the more I feel disconnected from my humanity..... Pluto seems more my master these days than its rightful heir, as it seems the governed of his realm are the few things that still allow me to truly cherish breaths. what I wouldn't give to be blissfully ignorant of the things I am found wanting of....
I been there. It's when people come accross as drones, with a program that cannot be rewritten. They carry on with whatever they are doing, and even when they are on the verge of arguing or some kind of drama, you don't give a damn, meanwhile you feel alone while thinking how uninteresting people are, it gets to a point where it's spine chilling. You might not realize it, but a change of environment would work wonders for you. And incase you have a toxic person in your life, either over rule them, or get rid of them, when they drain you other areas of your life can start to get messed up based on lowered performance. If anything scratch the details. You will feel disconnected for a good while. On your leasure time you may feel compelled to do absolutely nothing. In the meantime just keep collecting answers that are available to you. This grind you're experiencing is all a part of... You know, life.
the best advice i think to give to someone who feels this way... btw, i think we should call this feeling "existential". it sounds right...
the best advice is to make a goal for yourself, and go for that goal. it has to be a huge goal though. but just draw out a vague plan on how your going to accomplish that goal, and then start working at it, and anything you're feeling like your life has no purpose, you can think to yourself, no my purpose is to accomplish this goal.
it's really a great motivaor. it lets you acheieve what it is you want more because you internalize it as one of the reasons of your being.
The thing about existential experiences. Everything we work to achieve requires the intervention or particapation of others. In essence, people are the keepers of dreams, but we tend to be the key for others. What I'm trying to say is, we must impose our plans on others to make it happen. Gia can do this, but it will suck for him, unless of course, he actually scores an awesome goal, then people all of a sudden wouldn't seem so bad. Even so, he'll still need to shed off the vampires who are draining him.
I agree that thoughts are an interesting concept. You can make your dreams come true by thinking positively and letting out positive energy. In general, people expect miracles in a short time but in reality it is a long process.When we share our positive energy with each other nothing is impossible.
Dear G: some times my mind takes a break, sometimes a full shutdown of all busy functions to clean house. I compare it to when my best friend would have days off work while the plant was shut down for clean up. the mind needs it too. some states of depression are the mind doing this; some mediation is for that.
I would use that time to clean house while you are in detached mode. And can throw things out that you are normally too busy or emotionally engaged to get the read work done. Believe me the time will fly.
As soon as you get busy using that detached phase and taking advantage of it, then things start to pick up again where you get pulled into this that or the other.
I tell ppl similar when they are in between partners, to make the most of your alone time while it lasts. you will miss it. just when you start to enjoy your independence and getting stuff done, boom, people come into your life and start hijacking your time. it's like reverse psychology or murphy's law. the minute you find a good use for that stage you're in, you shift into the next one. use it! while you can