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Love is over-rated. I've never felt it and don't care to feel it. It is nonexistent as far as I'm concerned.

How can you not care about not feeling it? It's supposed to be the best feeling in the world, and a lot of people would pity you for not feeling it. That's gotta say something

Agreed.

by NeverMore

How can you not care about not feeling it? It's supposed to be the best feeling in the world, and a lot of people would pity you for not feeling it. That's gotta say something

 Why would I want to feel something I've never felt nor care to feel?

I don't give a shit what love is to other people. It doesn't mean anything to me.

Why would you not care to feel something nice?
This sounds a bit more like bitterness from your part, not disinterest.

Do tell. What is it we may one day do together?

I don't have a problem with romance, there's just no romance on either side in this situation between OP and her SO.

You say love is nice. Yet, I've only seen it make people vulnerable. Love is nothing more than an effective tool of manipulation.

I don't say love is nice, I say people say love is nice.
You see it as vunerable because it is the sociopathic perspecive, but other people view it as nice. In the end only the subjective experience matters, so again: Do you not like pleasant emotions?

I rarely experience genuine emotion, aside from irritation and anger. I don't care for emotions much. I have felt pleasant emotions, like happiness, but it never lasts long anyway.

It's the same with every other emotion. I can feel most of them, but not very often or for very long.

Asking to fuck his shit up isn't going to do anything. Is he sexually dominant? Is this why you enjoy the sex so much?

Also, he already has you where he wants you:  I think he does like me when I'm not being completely crazy.  I just
hope he hasn't seen enough of my bad side to have given up.

You're doubting yourself and blaming yourself. You're also overly eager. I understand that some of this is due to BPD. There's only so much of that you can suppress though. This is just the making of a perfect storm and trust me, the aftermath isn't worth it.