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 I can't wait to weigh in on this. 

Edit: Nevermind. Silk nailed it early on. Not worth saving.

And Spatial if I didn't know you were male I'd think you were a teenage girl with those romance-filled posts. 

"And Spatial if I didn't know you were male I'd think you were a teenage girl with those romance-filled posts."

by Edvard

[@Luna] This post made you sound like Tony the asshole narc, though. No wonder some people perceive you as a little stuck-up.

 
Connection?

 No. In the next few months or years he will KILL you.

by anastacia

 Not worth saving.

If you don't mind why do you say this?

Why do you enjoy the abuse? I don't get you Lovefraud victims.

 Don't the Lovefraud types try to run away from their sociopaths and find a place to trash them for a year? 

 I'm not a lovefraud victim.  Reading that would make me wallow in self misery which won't help.

If you want to know why I like what he does: he says certain things which I know are sick but turn me on.  I pretend to hate it but he knows I like it, and keeps doing it if he isn't bored.

I probably have low self-esteem and when he rejects me it makes me feel good to win his attention back.  I want to be naked and beg him not to hurt me but I know if I do, he will view it as a challenge to hurt me, so I don't.  That leads to tension which turns into amazing sex.

I know I'm his victim but I want to be the best victim he's ever had.  I want him to think about me when I'm not there.  I can do this, but I end up falling for him all over again, and always being there.

If I'm not there, will he be possessive again and chase me?  It seems like he's started again, but if I call him I'm worried he'll be complacent again.

This is the best thing I have read all week so far.

 Thanks but what should I do?

I could come up with a bullshit excuse to text him but would he see through that?

There are so many women just like you it's ridiculous... No self esteem at all. All I hope is that you never have children.