As no one will be reading or commenting on this post, I think I can set down clearly, at last, what would satisfy me with the author:
- If I could go back in time, to a point where intelligence and beauty were at their maximum powers
- take one of her law classes, and let her see that I am brilliant, shrewd, dynamic, charismatic, charming
- she gets the idea to "ruin me" with seduction
- the seduction takes place, and like the others, I begin to avoid her
- she assumes, as with the others, that she has "ruined" me: gotten inside my mind, made me doubt myself, weakened me, drained me, frightened me
- she demands to know why I am avoiding her, and expects me to say I am scared, depressed, confused
- Instead I say, "Well, I think you''re a really, really nice person, and I don't want to hurt your feelings, but I just am not attracted to your horse-face and big jaw and coarse looks." LOL