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 36 years old, heavily medicated for obsessive compulsive, paranoia, ASPD and a minor list of other symptoms. I know of one other person like you, minus the age. 

Tell me how do you feel about pitch screeches? or white noise? 

 I think you are seeing if I have Asperger's, right? It is in fact what brought me here: I had been researching it and a number of related things.  I do hate distraction of that sort.  I am often overwhelmed by keeping an entire environment's details constantly in my conscious awareness.  It drives me up the wall sometimes to notice people NOT noticing things.  Am I the one overreacting or are they the ones just being oblivious?  That kind of stuff.

So, really, I probably drop out of most measurements for psychopathy and sociopathy, due to my number and intensity of anxieties.  With the meds, though, a lot of this is reduced.  It feels more akin to what I see about sociopathy, since it's less reaction than a strategy, now.  It's not me, it's them, sort of.  Whatever I feel like I'm rambling.

 Wrong, I’m simply collecting data that’ll help me understand your past/future posts. But what if I thought you had Asperger’s? Would you lace your words carefully around me as to not appear disingenuous?

You never did tell me about the noises…

by Buttered Toast

 I do hate distraction of that sort.  I am often overwhelmed by keeping an entire environment's details constantly in my conscious awareness.

 I meant "yes" to the question by using "distraction."  I didn't specify.  I have difficulties in such situations.  I have total apathy in lacing my words.  I like to spell out my motivations sometimes, because I run into it a lot that I have to give those explanations, or else I meet a lot of misunderstanding that's totally unintended.  I cannot give tone of voice here, but I want to depart from too much attachment to those concerns if we're just discussing.

Noted.

Last request, look out your window and tell me what you see. Now tell me what you want to see when you look out the window.

 I see sunshine and swaying trees.  I have no want of any kind to what I see.  Those are fine.

Did you know that meds like Zoloft... actually Zoloft in particular, causes severe mental illness and depression in people with a certain genetic setup?

They really don't want you to know this and it's not like they will offer you expensive genetic testing either.

Good luck. 

 So far, so good.

 From what I know, SSRI's are like shooting craps or playing roulette.  It was one of a few others I tried and the only one with a noticeable effect, so far.  I am usually very wary of fucking with brain chemistry.  "Hey, I think with that!"  ...But, well, it's all been pretty positive.  I don't know if the drug is making me feel okay about the drug, but hey...  The upside is I get to score highly on these silly tests and shrug.  Almost like enjoying being my own test subject.