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In my situation there was no anger, or any other emotion involved. I didn't attack anyone violently, nor did I feel any hostility towards him.

I'd met him online through a BDSM site and we'd agreed to meet in person. He was a masochist who wanted to be strangled briefly because it turned him on. Once I started strangling him, I couldn't have stopped if I'd wanted to. I didn't want to stop.

I felt like an animal that had control of it's prey. All I could think was KILL! There was no other rational thought in my head.

When he realized I wasn't going to stop, he panicked and eventually forced me off him. If I had tied him up beforehand, he'd be dead by now. I didn't tie him up though because I wasn't planning on trying to kill him when we met. I just couldn't resist the compulsive urge to do so.

I find it interesting how much of a split there is between "Can't get into it" and "Can't stop" for that sort of thing.

I've never really tried to strangle anyone, so I can't say I know what either of those are like.

 What do you mean by "can't get into it"?

An inner naive restraint where the minute they do violence they recoil from themselves. Some even flip to friendly and start apologizing.

 I can't relate to that.

I think some people are just afraid of that part of themselves and when they show it, it scares them, so they immediately change their attitude as a result.

I dont think your use to the term claws was overly dramatic in this instance; those are some wicked, lovely scratches on your neck. :)

There seems to be something about choking- the way a person squirms and struggles under the increasing pressure, or worse, accepts it with complete submission- that is particularly triggering, and tests the limits of one's self-control. Sometimes the submissive is so zoned out in subspace that they don't know well enough to struggle. It can be such a fine line.

 your story sounds embellished and reeks of hog shit. interestingly though, i once lost it and grabbed a bitch by the throat. i would have liked to kill her...

I used to have a bad temper, but I never lost control of it. The moment you let your emotions control your actions, you've already lost the game.

All you sensitve types that let your anger get the better of you amuse me.

What did the girl say to you that hurt your feelings so much that you just couldn't resist attacking her?

So I'm clear: does "attempt" mean premeditated, or just willing to kill under circumstances?  Does a choice have to be there, or does an outburst count?

 Can't blame sugargirl for saying what she said... This story is so full of cliches and unimaginative, it's clearly just one of your "fantasies".