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 Why would a psychopath give you that?

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 Wow Luna, some of your story is pretty sad. You have so much potential to do very well in life. Some fucked up people almost took that away from you. And so many others have that taken away from them, because of stupid families.

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 yes, i guess it is a little sad for little baby luna, but to be honest, i don't remember any of it. i didn't even know i was adopted until my parents told me when i was like 8

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 I'm glad it's been like this for you.

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 My childhood was stable up until around age 6 or 7, when my father began drinking and gambling and would lash his anger onto myself and my siblings and mother, he is also a sociopath with alot of charm and charisma, thats how he kept us believing everything he did was right(started around 6 or 7 but continues up to this day) trying to con us into believing he is justified in everything he does and into believing we feel love for him, which is our natural dispostion as his offspring, aside from that my mother was a good mother and did everything you'd expect a normal mother to do, at a very young age starting before grade 1, i always knew i was more self aware than those around me, i did everything that was asked of me because i knew it would be easier to do so than not and it had the possiblilty of reward, as a sociopath my father has always believed he is superior to everyone else, and in turn taught me to take on that same kind of thinking, that we were set apart from all the other worthless lemmings on this planet, so naturally i obtained this sort of thinking as well, i quickly learned that people are weak emotionally and mentally and are easy to break down, i expiramented for a while on a few kids i didn't like to much in grade school because they simply seemed to act as if they were superior to me, it didn't take much at all to break them down, and as a result i felt no sort of remorse in doing so, i felt they deserved to be punished for thinking they were superior to me, anyway that wasn't they type of behavior that i could sustain if i didn't want to complicate things so i went back to my compliant self, some people argue that being a sociopath has little to do with social upbringing but in my opinion it is a major factor, i used to feel deep emotion with many things but slowly after years of being conned into loving my father and him lashing out and severing that love again and again calloused me to the point where i hardly feel anything when it comes to most other peoples harm and i struggle to feel emotion on any level, i feel they deserve it often for not seeing whatever it is ahead of time, much of my emotion is emulated so as not to arouse suspician, i do whatever i need to, to get what i want, i con, cheat and steal from people by making them beleive they want to do these things by mimicing they're emotions and ideals, and ive always been good with other people because of my ability to do so, my manipulation skills I would have to say are very high, and even when im caught in a horrible situation i always convince the people to catch me that its a simple misunderstanding regardless of the matter at hand, the empaths are so stupid, they fear, "well how do i avoid a sociopath or having anything to do with them?", lol you can't we are empaths in every way on the outside, we are whoever we want you to see all the time no matter who you are, and if you do find us it will always be after we have been using you for a long period of time, so the simple answer is that all you can do is hope that one isn't choosing to prey on you for their own benefit, smart sociopaths don't commit huge crimes, you have to "connect" with empaths on a emotional level and then use that "connection" to your advantage so their unaware, if you commit a large crime and are caught you lose, it shows that your failing at what you do, they idea is to remain undetecable, just because your weren't in trouble with the law or torture animals as a kid doesn't mean your not a sociopath in fact it could mean that your smarter than your counterparts who do these things by not arousing suspician against yourself, my particular code that i live by as a sociopath is JUSTICE, idk about you others whether you have a particular way that you go about your life, but how i live mine is by a single word JUSTICE, not the governments form and a religious form but my own, you see, this world is a rotting place, so many horrible people should be cut out because of their wrong doings, so many people that are damaging humanity as a whole instead of benefitting it, you might say "well how are you benefitting anyone by cheating other people out of things", your right to an extent i am benefitting myself, thats because i feel i have the right to be benefitted for being a sociopath, having that higher level of thinking that isn't influenced by frivolous, weak emotions, i know the difference between right and wrong and it pisses me off when i see something occur that i know to be wrong, all i feel is anger and i lust for revenge on that person who has committed that injustice and i always obtain it regardless of how long it takes for me to do so, i don't prey on the weak, preying on the weak is a cowardly act, and the strong who prey on the weak are proving they are weak by not preying on the strong, only sociopaths realize that its all just a game.

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 I'm sorry, I want to read your post but its hard without paragraph breaks, please edit those in.

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 My childhood was pretty peaceful, I guess. It all went to dust when I quit normal/public school and chose to be homeschooled, I literally had no friends, and hadn't stepped out of my house for about a year and a half. Since I had nothing to do, I just went on the Internet and harassed people unintentionally just to get my stress off a bit, after that phished some YouTube accounts and deleted all their videos, they, but mostly their fans started posting hate comments on my channel every day.

 

Every single day I logged on to my YouTube account and see my channel, all there was hate, and even if people posted nice comments, I just couldn't see them. I was at a point where I was so abused that I couldn't accept love in the society anymore, all I liked was when people hated me, it made me angry and that anger is what I took out on normal, innocent people who had done nothing to me. Nothing at all. But I had no choice either.

 

So one fine day, as I'm just feeling angry and full of hatred inside, a little paranoid too, don't really remember, I myself decided to accept love in the society, told a few people told hold a note with my name on it and guess what, they ACTUALLY did, this helped out in the beginning, I was slowly turning into a nice, happy person but there was still a little bit of negativity in my soul, so I just kept doing that, and one fine day my account got banned with the reason of harassing some people.

 

Since then I've never felt happy again, really never. I don't even feel a thing when someone even politely says "How are you" , "How was your day" or similar. I don't really know what to do right now. I'll fix up an appointment with my doctor and tell him my problem about how I don't feel happiness anymore, maybe some part of my brain doesn't want to accept happiness since it is still in the negative state. Well whatever, that's it folks.

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If more people contribute to this thread there are going to be more people in here to have discussions with.

 

So I guess there really isn't any reason at all.

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 What brought you here?

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 So you'd say you're well adjusted to the majority of people in your school now?

Why was it so hard to adjust once you transferred?

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