Good morning
I'm reading C.O.S at present and finding it gripping. I would say I'm a classic Empath in many ways. creative hyper sensitive, highly intuitive and a mass of different insecurities that people often use to their own advantage. I'm aware usually when this is happening but feel more comfortable allowing others to 'feel' like they have the upper hand. Don't get me wrong i'm no angel ( although I look like one with classsic cherubic features blonde hair and blue eyes) I do also succumb to manipluating others however I tend to feel morally challenged if I've metiphorically stepped on someone for selfish gain. This is exhausting and isn't a winnig strategy. I want to learn how to turn situations to my favour without feeling 'guilty'.
Reading C. O .S has given me certain insights into how the polar opposite of my character thinks. You Sociopaths have the upper hand in many ways not having to negotiate feelings and insecurities all the time. So armed with my new knowledge I placed myself in a challenging social setting with successful London City types. When in conversation with these high flyers full of bravado I noticed my insecurties coming to the forefront clouding my abilty to focus on the job at hand. I conciously made myself become hyper aware of everything going on around me rather than what was coming up inside. I suddenly felt a rush of adrenalin and immediatly felt empowered. I was able to almost have a panoramic view of the whole room while still being able to engage in conversation. I think there's something extremely valueable us Empaths can learn from your Sociopath.
So ME if your reading this thank you