No such thing as liking too many people.
No. I wasn't incorrect in my observation. "Silk Thread" comes across as a wallflower. But I asked if you were tnp because I suspected you were a muppet. There are so many of them that I just respond to content at face value.
Raven was actually one of my first guesses. You know why? It was the way you appreciated those gross pics; I remember your blog. I had even written a paragraph asking you if you liked "the breakfast club" as much "bad teacher", hoping to trip you up, but deleted it on impulse when tnp logged in, wondering if his presence was too much of a coincidence at 3 am. Fo rthe record, medusa was my second guess, but hindsight is 20/20. :)
So why did you leave and reinvent yourself? Did someone else register "Raven"?
No. I was just fucking around. I have congestive heart failure. Very recently diagnosed. So the exploration of what medications will work and which won't, has begun. I'm highly sensitive to medications, so it's not been a happy ride. And modifying my diet has proven to be harder than I believed it would be at the start. I should never drink alcohol, but my taste for it increases in the summer months. I love margaritas. :)
Oh, I registered on this new forum as Raven. Though it was Raven in some other language. I no longer remember which. But then I decided to try out a puppet. See what the big intrigue was. I was only going to use the Silkthread puppet for a week, for fun, but then Drunken Chana guessed who I was first, and I just couldn't give her the points for that. Not after her embarrassing display of slave to master, with Jay.
It's kind of fun, but at the same time... I just don't have the energy to keep up some other persona. Even if I were not struggling with my health and beaten down by fatigue... I don't think I'd have it in me to keep going with the puppet shit. I was Turtle too, and also Heather... just before the old forum blew up. Just before I deleted my Raven account for the 3rd time (lol, out of some irrational paranoia), I posted a comment about how maybe I would just be a bunch of puppets during the final days; see if anyone could guess it. I don't know if I should be offended that as Turtle and Silkthread, I kept getting accused of being Piles... meh... whatever!
Shit. I'm sorry to hear that. Are you on digoxin? I understand if you dont want to answer my questions here. But if you ever just feel like venting drop me a line at [email protected] I'd love to hear from you.
And you bitch! I loved drunken Chana, LOL :D
Then I guess I have some small amount of talent. I never understood people using puppets. I also don't understand the need to figure out what puppet belongs to whom. And I never imagined being able to pull off some other puppet for even one day. I've always thought myself to be completely obvious in every way.
Heh... I hate when I rhyme on accident! That's soooo Piles!
No. Is that a good one? They have me on a combination of things which... I might just email you about. I don't want to get into a grand dicussion here about, because I don't want the healing police on my ass, if you know what I mean. It's all still very new and confusing to me. I don't need added confusion. I have a hard time trusting doctors though, and I've become paranoid that they will kill me while trying to find the right method for treating me, long before my heart kills me. So if you know a lot about the meds they use to treat heart failure, I would love to have your input. My mother jaws on for days about all the vitamins I need to be taking now as well... and you know my relationship with her. I don't want some average shithead telling me what's best for me. I get so easily aggitated when people want to talk to me about my condition these days, as well.
I get easily aggitated these days, period. I'm trying to keep my stress levels down, but with a disordered mind like mine... that's not easy. I have always just taken care of myself, and my arrogance about how strong I am, how much I can handle on my own, and what my body's abilities are, has proven to be my downfall. I also HATE HATE HATE, pity. So... in other words... people like yourself might be just the kind I could talk about this with, and not have my stress levels go up. AM I making any sense here?
I don't use puppets, but when you hang around a place and so many others do, it gets so that you can't help but speculate. The thing is that most of the regulars are smart, manipulative, narcissistic, and to a certain degree- antisocial. So there are overlapping characteristics to consider, and many games that people might want to play, for various motivations.
That can be fun- and it whets my investigative appetite. But it is also useful, because one of my weaknesses is that I can be a bit gullible, in that I accept things at face value much of the time. This is a tendency rooted in my narcissism, because I am generally plain and direct, so I project that onto others. But it is foolish to assume that others necessarily operate that way. If anything, my time here has honed my suspicious nature.
And here's a little nugget I observed, for any future puppets you make: you spell "suit", "suite". I believe Silkthread did, too, a couple of times. :)