the song about American pie where it’s like bye bye miss American pie put the chevy to the levvy but the levy was dry and singing good ol bous drinking whiskey and rye singing this will be the day that I die!
the band that sang this I believe died in a tragic plane accident one day randomly
and weirdly enough I sang it a bunch cuz it was stuck in my head the day that I wound up flat lining in a hospital bed when I was 12
and ever since then I developed a weird OCD about the song and I feel like it’s cursed and I can’t sing that song without something terrible happening like it’s cursed
lol I know it’s very irrational but a lot of irrational OCD shit has come from trauma for me so it’s not uncommon for me like that’s just how my brain reacts to serious trauma
like pretty much every time lol
There was a lot of other oddness that came from trauma that you will look at and go what the fuck?
like it makes no sense but. There are just some weird fucking ticks I have like. I can’t pull a plug out of a socket just by holding it by the chord I have to pull it out by holding it firmly because my brain tells me I’m going to die if I do it the other way.
Weird things like that that make no sense but have been engrained in me for very specific reasons. The reason for that one being I was yelled at and told not to pull the plug out that way or I would die, and I did it anyways. And that day I did actually end up in the hospital and nearly died
and then I came home and looked at the light socket and wondered to myself “maybe if I would of listened I wouldn’t of died.”
????
It’s only in response to trauma that happened when I was really young. So yeah the like child brain doesn’t process trauma properly and if resorts to weird thought processes like that which become full blown idiosyncrasies very quickly.