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It sounds more like you want enabling company, but don't tend to see what that sort of attention can do to you. 

I haven’t been open lately and honest with myself and it is making me worse 

It’s not helping that’s for sure 

Blanc said: 

I haven’t been open lately and honest with myself and it is making me worse 

 

It’s not helping that’s for sure 

You sure this feeling isn't a spur of the moment thing? Emotions don't always have an externally contextually preceding cause. 

From experience, it's pretty easy to have a feeling appear, assume it must have a cause, and then try to find external reasons for it instead of just realizing that it could just be where your head's at over internal causes. 

That’s what I’m trying to sort out by being open and honest 

the internal issues lol

I know shit needs to change and shit needs to be sorted 

and I know that everything I’ve done so far hasn’t helped 

like there were stepping stones and then I just plateaud 

blanc said:

I know shit needs to change and shit needs to be sorted

What in particular? 

The same way you insisted you were 100% gay, is the same way you think yourself into depression.

When you think and talk negative, you will be negative and you'll feel it. You do it all the time, and you write long essays with you soaking in shit. I actually had to check how long the OP was before I considered reading it.

Take a loss. Seek not revenge or justice especially when those things are well out of your reach. Remind yourself every single time you starts to whine about the long gone past, to knock it off for the sake of mental health. 

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