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Its scary to get weaker and deteriorate openly on SC (Im brave af)


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youre welcome for being brave for your amusement 

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shutup you faggy fucks stop harassing a mentally ill person kek

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youre all horrible people I hate you all:p

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I feel like the goddess Kali lives inside me and is destroying me in front of my very eyes

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and I get pleasure from it for some weird sick reason 

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pain feels good destruction feels good why does it feel so pleasurable

 

Noooooooo one stays the same, you know what goes up must come doooown

change is a thing you can count on, I feel so much more wrecked nooooowww

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last edit on 12/1/2019 3:18:34 AM
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you're either trying to deal with the internal pain by overriding it, there is something cathartic about self harm

 

especially if you're suicidal it can be a release, one step closer to suicide feels good when you wanna die

 

or, you're just trying to deal with intense numbness 

 

there is also people who do it out of shame self loathing as a habitual repetitious pattern, like they think they did something bad and they want to punish themselves. this habit is usually born out of abusive situations where they're used to this playing out. I did something bad so I must harm myself. self hatred, self loathing, shame. etc. 

 

these types usually become addicted to self harm. psychologically. and then it takes on a whole other shape after that. 

 

the movie suicide room, explains it really well. succinctly. 

 

while the character cuts himself he says, "closed wounds, open world. open wounds, closed world." 

 

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for some it's a way of dealing with everything going on around them and inside them, and serves as a barrier between themselves. like, a dark place you can go to and, suicide, self harm, depression- you allow these things to become your "friends" and you prefer it that way. you have a sense of control. it's also an isolating behavior, that goes alongside the severe depression. or sometimes eating disorders and borderline.

 

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that's only if you're in your "right mind" when you're doing it. 

 

sometimes you can be out of your mind a bit, and do weird things that, you don't know the reason behind really. if you understood it totally, and you were completely rational, you would be able to prevent the odd behaviors from happening in the first place. 

last edit on 12/1/2019 4:51:43 PM
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Kys pls
Roses are Red, Violets are Blue; I'll drown myself in a river, Because I'm drowning you too.
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