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aubrieta said: 

meanwhile i have someone willing to put in actual effort to murder me so i dont have to

#bossassbitch

So you found the easy way to do it? 

Turncoat said: 

aubrieta said: 

meanwhile i have someone willing to put in actual effort to murder me so i dont have to

#bossassbitch

So you found the easy way to do it? 

 always;)

not rly tho cuz he probably wont do it how i want it all romantically with sex and heroin and stuff

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u go attempt faggot

maybe you should attempt therapy ;;;0 

the trick is inner contentment 

you have to grow and cultivate that like a garden 

and accept that sometimes it rains and that's part of the growth 

without it all methods fail except death 

and death isn't winning 

u have to care and tend to it and watch it carefully, guarding it. and you have to plant seeds, and water them, weed them. give them nutrients. 

self care isn't just taking a bubble bath or going for a walk, it's allowing yourself to look outside the window of depression and not allowing it to isolate you, despite not really feeling like it. 

it's following a schedule you made for your recovery even if you don't want to. despite all the bad thoughts. 

because sitting with them will just prolong the suffering.... 

but you can expel them, and start again. 

and you have to stay routed in something or, the wind will wash you away with every storm. 

something routine, that has a close symbiotic relationship with your heart. that internal self you know, is your anchor in the worst of times. 

you have to make ur mind a lovely place to be for your own sake 

and its okay to be sad sometimes. its okay to take a break. sometimes it's a journal entry or a smoke break or, a morning to yourself. 

an nightly ASMR sound bath. a book at 3am when you can't sleep, a candle, a cup of tea. 

it could be a year in rehab, of suffering. 

its okay to be frustrated. violent. to feel like you're falling to pieces. to feel nothing at all. to feel like nothing you're thinking or doing makes any sense. to not know the reason behind anything you do. to not know the next move. 

but I encourage you to keep going forward, and striving for fine-ness, perfection, normalcy. not another image of yourself than just, being you. 

you don't owe anyone or anything to be, anything. to be recovered. to be healed. to be a picture of... what you or anyone else imagined you to be. 

you were given the gift of your life and autonomy to rule yourself and run freely on the earth and do as you pleased. 

and no one can take that away from you, a taste of liberation. and I hope that everywhere you go, you continue to grow and find serenity. 

even if it sucks sometimes, its ok. it's allowed to suck for a while. it's normal. 

but then pull the weeds, plant seeds, water it. find your balance, back to center. the way back to you again. 

even if you, have open ended questions and, grey area, and things inside you haven't made peace with. 

also on death, 

I personally believe that the suffering doesn't end just because you died. you carry that with you into the afterlife and all the matters of the soul that you haven't solved will remain to torment you as you go up into the cosmos as an entity that is transient between metaphysical dimensions. death doesn't end the torment it's just passing into another plane of existence. the existence we have now is like winning the lottery, energy displacement wise, our little living souls of energy, we can make up anything. a part of anything in the universe. but we were lucky enough to reside inside these bodies and it is a gift to have it. the life we call existence, consciousness. and when we die, we give that up. 

to kill yourself, is like, giving up the greatest gift in the universe. and it's not as likely you will receive it again, could be 100 years, could be millions of years. and you have to wait with the stars above, held there. living, waiting. 

seriously, to be human is a gift. once in a life time as they call it. this is it so. make the most of it. 

your body, your planet, your existence. cherish it, enjoy it. 

Blanc said: 

also on death, 

 

I personally believe that the suffering doesn't end just because you died. you carry that with you into the afterlife and all the matters of the soul that you haven't solved will remain to torment you as you go up into the cosmos as an entity that is transient between metaphysical dimensions. death doesn't end the torment it's just passing into another plane of existence. the existence we have now is like winning the lottery, energy displacement wise, our little living souls of energy, we can make up anything. a part of anything in the universe. but we were lucky enough to reside inside these bodies and it is a gift to have it. the life we call existence, consciousness. and when we die, we give that up. 

 

to kill yourself, is like, giving up the greatest gift in the universe. and it's not as likely you will receive it again, could be 100 years, could be millions of years. and you have to wait with the stars above, held there. living, waiting. 

 

seriously, to be human is a gift. once in a life time as they call it. this is it so. make the most of it. 

 

your body, your planet, your existence. cherish it, enjoy it. 

 I don't believe this at all. all you have to do is forgive yourself and everyone else and be willing to let go of physical/material attachments and you ascend to higher dimensions that way

but I don't necessarily believe in an afterlife. hypothetically though, what I'm saying is true if all the NDE accounts, as well as those who "channel" those who have crossed over (psychic mediums, etc) are to be taken seriously