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its kind of a beautiful sacrifice imo. true love in exchange for everything else that used to be valuable to me

Life is so short and i think letting myself be really truly in love and settling is worth every other pleasure in the world

I have issues with love though, it's been something that ive been obsessed with since a little girl. "love". i've always had a mermaid type of soul. that bpd succubus vibe just in a much more funny cute eccentric trolly way

lol i just thought about something. if im actually sad about the fact that im not ever going to let myself give in to having sex with him i really truly am in love

ive never actually been like sad about it before? with anyone else it was like "they don't deserve me" with Sam its like, he still doesnt deserve me but this is the man it feels like ecstasy to show him my entire soul, to tell him anything and everything and he doesnt block me(except that one time lol) or run away like a little bitch, and I respect him but im never going to let him be actually inside of me? maybe this is why im depressed lol

..................oh my god im in love for real

im not going to ever have sex with him, but im actually sad about it. among other things, im sad about other things too but i can't believe im actually sad about knowing that i will never let him have sex with me lol

I like playing with tarot and this particular card sums up my emotional state, the emotional state I will probably always have for the rest of my life now

my heart is full forever now but im sad forever now too

that's not what the card means its just my interpretation of it

it traditionally means heartbreak, but im not heartbroken, im fulfilled in my heart but incredibly sad at the same time

 You hang yourself up on the dumbest shit

you use your crushes to create false hope and a fantasy narrative in order to escape depression.

i know because i have bpd and i do it every relationship.