It's why I'm finally embracing my ugliness, and doing a lot of stuff in general that used to terrify me. I'm supported now and now I can love everything about myself, not just the best parts of me
There are so many reasons why I know that it will last for a long time and probably my whole life :):)
No one is mad that you are with Sam. No one is shitting on your relationship. People don't like you because you are a bitch, you spam threads, and you make the site borderline unusable for hours to days at a time when you go into histrionic fits.
au contraire, many people on sc are mad about it
turncoat you can be a jealous hater all you want, but the reality is(and this goes for all the jealous haters) you are going to be the one who is disappointed, not me :) and of this I am 100% certain
If it ends up working out for you in a tangible way that I can see, it wouldn't be jealousy it'd be bewilderment and wonderment.
Oh trust me I will never show you, I enjoy torturing and being mysterious just like I never showed any proof about colin until it was over
how the fuck is it bewildering? we are both ultra online attention whores with high IQs(i only care about attention from the guy I love, he wants attention in general), and I'm more manipulative than him so he can't push me away (and doesnt even want to, I make him feel like God and seen in a more real authentic way than hes ever experienced, and vice versa)
.......I dont get what there is to be bewildered about, at all
look at what ive spent the past 3 years of my life doing after i stopped having sex and wanting irl relationships.............having attention whore trolling e-relationships with a lot of different guys, always looking for "the One", desperately and frantically at times because all of them kept failing at being what i wanted, trolling almost every day on sociopathcommunity except for the breaks I took............
it would be more bewildering if me and Sam never found each other
Oh btw Sam has changed for me in major ways and will continue to do so. We weren't even compatible for an e-relationship last summer when I first contacted him, but once he realized I existed he slowly started making changes until we could vibe and i intuitively knew when I was talking about him to psychopath dave that it was finally the right time. and its still rocky even now and more changes need to be made on both our parts but no relationship, e-relationship or otherwise is without challenges :)
