I just tried going back to colin but he has me blocked im completely fucked Sam owns my heart and there is nothing i can do im fucked this is like my worst nightmare come true
the saddest part is I should be grateful because if sam blocks me then i will have no one to talk to that I actually enjoy talking to my life is over lol
my life is fucking over there is literally no one I can run to to save me from sam's abuse
the only other option is suicide and im too pussy someone kill me not even Slay is obsessed with me enough to want to kill me anymore FUCK
i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
so im just willingly going to allow myself to be completely treated like shit by sam for the rest of my life great
its over my life and self-esteem are over
