Dexedrine and Coffee

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on 10/25/2019

Posts: 2230

I feel like this combination has been hurting the quality of my life. The dexedrine alone is good, but when I wash it down with coffee, this happens-

My heart starts racing and my neurons feel like popcorn kernels in a microwave.

I start thinking about everything I need to do now, soon, later, and way down the line, especially the urgent things.

I begin ruminating on the consequences of complacency.

I get overwhelmed and thinking about all this makes me on edge and twitchy.

Noises around me including people talking to me start to really overwhelm my senses and multiply the anxiety, as a result I lash out at anyone around me talking too much.

If anybody mentions one of the things I'm worrying about I tell them to shut up because it's making me anxious.

I randomly start yelling and twitching.

I talk fast and frantically.

If somebody's behavior exacerbates how overwhelmed I feel in any way I yell at them.

I think the slightest signs of disapproval or annoyance towards me and spaz out.

People get angry at me for seeming like a spaz.

My bad mood persists until both drugs have worn off.

I fucking crash and fall asleep.

My grandiose delusions are better than yours.

by bleary

on 10/25/2019

Posts: 1354

Why are you prescribed the dexedrine?

by AliceInWonderland

on 10/25/2019

Posts: 2266

From my experience you must focus that energy.

You are going to be consumed by the twitch no matter what, the least you can do is point it towards something specific and you must do this from the start or your mind will scatter and be overwhelmed by anxiousness as you deal with complexities.

The real issue is you have a very wild variable in your life, that variable being Delora.

Even if you do everything right, she very well break the focus and lead you back into overwhelming possibility.

by BohemianRhapsody

on 10/25/2019

Posts: 2230

bleary said:
Why are you prescribed the dexedrine?

ADHD

My grandiose delusions are better than yours.

by BohemianRhapsody

on 10/25/2019

Posts: 2230

AliceInWonderland said:
From my experience you must focus that energy.
You are going to be consumed by the twitch no matter what, the least you can do is point it towards something specific and you must do this from the start or your mind will scatter and be overwhelmed by anxiousness as you deal with complexities.
The real issue is you have a very wild variable in your life, that variable being Delora.
Even if you do everything right, she very well break the focus and lead you back into overwhelming possibility.

Yeah, she is really unpredictable. And it makes me anxious as fuck. She has megacolon but can be irresponsible with her diet. She can be whimsical, impulsive, and childish. She has a constant need for attention that she sometimes lies to satisfy and gets angry from if not satisfied, which makes alone time difficult to have. Some of her goals directly obstruct or drastically change mine and vice versa. She is hypersensitive to criticism and emotionally unstable. These things stress me out and make me yell at her a lot, and in turn she gets worse.

Yeah, it's tough. I'm not devaluing her, just facing hard facts that need to be confronted.

My grandiose delusions are better than yours.

by Turncoat

on 10/25/2019

Posts: 32854

The answer is simple, quit coffee.

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by BohemianRhapsody

on 10/25/2019

Posts: 2230

Turncoat said:
The answer is simple, quit coffee.

Yep, until this script runs out

My grandiose delusions are better than yours.

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