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By psychoanalizing this dream I can conclude that you subconciously want to fuck your mom in a hotel in England with other people watching.

Also, rude, don't just barge in over people eating.

i dreamt last night that i was in this class room and there was this creepy guy in the room that put up his phone and took a picture of a japanese girl in a school girl outfit, obviously because he thought she was hot and was planning on posting it on the internet 

and then when some guy spoke up from behind him, and said like "hey why are you recording?" or like he said "what are u doing" really loudly basically like called him out 

and he stopped and then got a gun out of his pants and then the guy was like "hey- HEY WOAH WHAT ARE YOU DOIGN" 

and i turned back around and i was like "NO WAIT DON-"

and then he put it up to his mouth and i looked away knowing it was about to be bad. 

and he shot himself in the face. 

*shudders* 

i immediately felt like i was going to have a panic attack knowing this was *definately* a trigger lol 

and so i left the room really quickly and like felt like i was going to be sick, and just took some deep breaths and paced around a bit not knowing what to do. i couldn't sit down i felt too uneasy. the deep breaths helped. 

and then after everyone left... i cleaned it up. like i put his head in a bag and threw it in the trash. 

and then after that i was in like a church setting, and there was like really... gothic sounding cathedral music, it was kind of joyous but kind of haunting and mourning-esc... 

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and then i was watching videos on my phone, and i found this random video of a little girl being abused 

and then i went to her house, and spoke to the mother who was in the video and abusing her and her brother 

and like helped the mother not be abusive anymore by talking to her? not sure if it was going to work but 

then it was like 10-20 years in the future.... and i saw the family again, and now the mom had written a famous book. and i was like hm i should probably read that. 

i felt like because i intervened in her life, i changed it drastically. like after she met me she stopped doing drugs and also got really healthy and lost like 90 pounds lol. and then she became famous. 

so i felt like i had sort of done that, and that i should read the book she wrote because it was almost like a gift from the universe to me, that i was meant to read in this "time line" because, i made it happen? 

kind of like a video game where you unlock certain things because you made a right move? and its like a furthering of the plot the thing you unlocked. 

it was a really trippy and weird concept but it made sense in the dream completely. 

but now looking back on it, it sounds really egocentric lol 

but yeah, so also in the future her kids were all grown up and i got to see them and stuff and they were really happy. 

I dreamt last night I was in London 

and I think I just got off the subway underground thing and came up from some stairs to you know the typical street area with the busy cars and y’all grey buildings 

and I was standing on the sidewalk in front of a building with an iron fence, it was like noon or so but it was still really frosty and cold 

and very very windy 

so I was trying to light a cigarette but the wind was so bad even cupping my hands round it didn’t help much and the guy next to me was smoking his cigarette standing there in a parka and dark clothes and a hat 

and he was bout 35/45 looking slender, wrinkled. And he just had tbis smirky look on his face like he was casually scoughing at me 

but also laughing with me at the situation as I kept trying and trying to light it 

and finally he said “you need a light?” 

and I nodded and he lit it for me and I said “thanks” and then looked the opposite direction down the street 

and He said from behind me, “how’d you end up in London?” 

he could tell the American accent. and probably the way I was dressed. I wasn’t properly prepared for the cold 

and he said, “you look like you just wound up here by mistake” 

and I said “yeah, my mother kicked me out with nothing. now I’m stuck here.” 

and then I asked for directions to where I needed to go, apparently there was a party with people I knew that I was invited to. I didn’t want to go but it was somewhere to be for a few hours until I could figure out where I was gonna sleep for the night. Figured I could eat off the finger food and be somewhere warm. Pretend to socialize holding a glass of champagne.

sit on some comfy chairs.

so I walked to this building that was sort of like a hotel lobby or maybe a country club looking place? There was a carpeted entry way and the interior was all old wood and it was dark and dingy and the floors creaked but despite being old and dusty, dingy. antique, it was also luxurious at the same time 

Just old and dark. Dim dim. 

and there was lots of antique puffy couches and chairs around with wood and satin patterned fabric, very out dated. And arching wooden ceilings and columns, shelves built into the walls. Chandeliers.

the iron windows had a view of the street outside I just came from. and I sat by the window in a chair looking out it at the icy wet London foggy winter weather with my hands in the pockets of my parka 

and then someone came up to me and basically urged me to come over the table where there was lots of food it was a dining area but no one was sitting down in the chairs 

this long buffet antique wooden table had tons and tons of food on it 

everyone was crowded around laughing drinking eating gorging themselves on these little hot pastries and fruit cakes sandwiches meats cheeses the works 

and I kind of stood in the back of the crowd not really able to squeeze in and I took a scope of the food 

and I noticed a spider crawling across the bottom of the table that was very large and Greyson white and very hairy 

almost looked ghostly like it was ancient 

and i looked around and noticed little invisible webs had been drawn everywhere around us and no one had noticed 

and then I watched for him and he scurried along the bottom of the table and disappeared behind the leg 

and I just backed away because I didn’t want to get caught in the web or have it jump on me 

and I no longer wanted to eat the food because I felt

like the spider had crawled on it without anyone noticing 

I didn’t tell anyone about the spider or the webs. And I watched people waltz through the webs or casually stick their foot out under the table or lean over into it 

and I was waiting for the spider to jump out any moment but it never did and they were fine 

but I knew as soon as I walked through a web I would be at risk to have it jump on me, despite everyone else doing it and be fine so I was scared and stayed away from that dining room 

and someone was like, “you don’t have an appetite?” 

and I said, “ah nah I already ate.” (I lied). 

the truth is, you have a spider as a guest at your party and it’s really grossed me out. 

anyways. That’s all I can remember. 

musical hologram boxes

there was a part of my dream where we had light up shit on the sidewalk like, that was a hologram that responded to touch and interacted with humans 

and when you pressed on one of the boxes (they were like interactive light box holograms) they played digital sounds with beautiful purity. 

you could play them all together to create a song. 

and then you could plug in a chord to a guitar through an amp, and there were setting on the electric guitar which allowed you to distort the sounds of the light boxes, and customize what their sounds were- and it would also distort each string of the guitar individually, and where you placed your finger. 

so you could pre-program them and such to be whatever you wanted through this high tech amp and guitar. 

I fiddled around with it for a while, made a song, and then it was automatically recording somehow and burned onto a CD (lol 2000's kids) 

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cashmere spider

I also dreamt I was bit by a spider, called the "cashmere spider" whilst I was driving. I drove home because I was closest to there, and I said to my mom what happened and I needed to be driven to the hospital because ei would die in like 60 seconds or something insane like that LOL 

this spiders poison somehow managed to restrict your blood vessels and like cease all blood flow or something insane like that. I could feel myself getting more and more tired. 

And the whole time you know I'm thinking man I can't believe I'm really dying this is so shit, why's it gotta be me. I could of just had a perfectly normal day today and been alive but no- this had to happen and now i'm dead.

And my mom was like driving too slow and I'm like "drive faster what the hell??" and she's like, "I am!!" and the speedometer was like 45 or something ridiculous an do'm like go 90 Jesus Christ hurry up! hurry up!! we're not going to make it in time.

so then I started calling 911 on my phone and the 911 operator is taking too long asking me irrelevant introduction questions and I try to skip his introduction by telling him I was bit by a cashmere spider and needed help immediately, hoping they would sent someone to me to meet me halfway.

And he was talking to slow and like asking all these random questions and was like, "we'll get to that in a bit but first- was the spider brown?" 

and im like AL;DSFKJA;SKFJ;ASJDF 

so then I wave down a bus and literally hop on it, and it's a school bus. and I'm like "PLEASE TAKE ME QUICKLY TO THE HOSPITAL SHES NOT DRIVING FAST ENOUGH" 

and they drive kind of slow and they stop at first to pick up the bus drivers son because he couldn't be left home alone and im like REALLY????? I'M LITERALLY DYING RIGHT NOW AND YOU'RE DOING THIS??? but I didn't say anything 

and then we finally got to this like rural hospital in the middle of no where, where I wasn't sure if they would even be able to treat me 

and they had me sign in. and I'm like "I don't have time I'm literally dying can you please help me like right now" 

and they were like, "lol please sign in and we'll see you in a moment." and then they disappeared like, basically intending to have me wait in the lobby LOL 

very frustrating dream lol I was also googling things like, "how to treat cashmere spider wound without hospital" 

and all that came up was stuff like, "you can't, it drains all the water out of your body and once it has it's irreversible." and like fatalistic stuff. 

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dancing with Kendall Jenner 

I was a dancer for some ballet company, and we were rehearsing something on stage in costume, on point. I was doing my part dancing around and coming in and out of the wings, and then I made a mistake somehow. 

and for some reason this mistake affected Kendall Jenner who was also in the ballet as one of the dancers, and I apologized to her. I think it caused her to fall or something or break like a bag she was carrying or something weird. And then Kylie Jenner and the rest of her family came out to like console Kendall as if it was the biggest deal in the world and they were like talking on the phone to their managers about it and stuff and I tried to apologize to them but they all ignored me. 

Never Ending Pipe Dream (it's all a simulation)

So like seven people or so were living in this place that was like a social experiment without their knowledge of it being one 

and they would go into this long tunnel like structure and to them the reality they were seeing was much different from the reality that was actually inside that tunnel and both would change everyday and the scientists would watch them as they went about their days in this tunnel 

theu had no idea they were trapped or not allowed to leave because the situation was manipulated in a way where they were stuck there anyways for some various reasons that made sense, so they had no idea they were trapped there by manipulation 

sort of like shutter island esc idk 

and then one guy starts to figure it all out and he spent too much time alone in his room and we thought he was going insane 

but then the stuff he was coming up with actually made sense despite him coming off as completely nuts and schizophrenic basically 

he was dwindling further into madness as a result of the trapment of the system he was in 

snd he basically figured out that the tunnel, you can’t leave it. He tried to walk as far as you can to the end and he said the tunnel just changed before your eyes and starts to adapt in order to keep you there or distract you from the fact you couldn’t find your way out 

and that all of it was a projection or a fake illusion and the reality of the tunnel was cold and bleak but what everyone else was seeing was just the illusion of comfort and the illusion of safety 

like a hologram or a digital projection on a screen it wasn’t even tangibly real it didn’t exist 

and he also figured out he wasn’t really there in the building he had “moved into” by choice he was basically selected, and brain washed manipulated into being there and then entrapped into staying there by circumstances made by the people intending to make him stay there 

it wasn’t that he was selected though it’s just he was whoever happen to be looking for a place to rent and they just took the first idk 7-15 people that came acting like they had openings but really these apartments or rooms were part of the experiments and observations as well. 

Two nights ago I had a dream I was at a pizza place and I was friends with the people who worked there so I was behind the counter talking to them and I had some kind of large ceramic object I was showing them. It was like a bust statue type object except it wasnt of a person. The owner came in and saw me distracting his employees so he kicked me out. It was the middle of the night and I walked to a  park in the town I grew up in. I wanted to get rid of the object so I went to a trash can in the middle of the park next to the pavilian. The ground's keeper was for some reason sleeping on a bench next to a trashcan. He also looked like my friend's Dad who died earlier this week. I threw the object into the bin and one of his eyes opened. He told that trash can was for grass only. The bin was like a big wooden box so I lifted it from the bottom. The ceramic object had turned into a bunch of chains so I pulled them out. "Is there a trashcan in the bathroom?" I asked, and he nodded. I went to the top of the hill and threw away the chains in a bin outside of the bathrooms at the top of the hill.

I walked back to the road and it was now daytime. I saw people I knew and someone asked me why I was at the park. I lied and said I woke up early to go for a walk around the park.

The end.

Don't think it, don't say it. Apocalypse Dream. 

The Room That Was Impossible To Find And The Single Exit Door (Drug Addiction)

The house of the dead you can't escape & the song that will kill you (infinitely expanding dimensional frames within frames, dreams within dreams, and portals) 

They Won't Find Us Here (Just Keep The Curtains Shut) 

-BirdBox esc. dream in a high tower (similar plot to the movie)

drunk and making out with Lana del Rey 

Dreamt two nights ago that I made out with Lana Del Rey and I was drunk, a young blonde version of her? LOL but yeah my dad was watching us, we were in a bar night club thing. And he was sitting on a booth against a wall in the distance. But I knew he could see me but I didn’t care because I was so drunk I was just like lol. The making out was meaningless as well and just a result of sheer intoxication. 

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Secret human race 

Dreamt last night that there was this secret race that “died out” and they were neurologically and physically different from us and had a different blood type. 

But they were extremely gentle compassionate and kind people, who were also advanced and ahead of their time as far as what they could invent and the understandings they had about everything. 

But yeah they were sort of taken over by people who were more, robust. Historically. And so there just weren’t any left. 

And for some reason, all of this was being told to me by a guy wearing all the headgear and sunglasses and we were in a helicopter that was very much in the fucking sky. And we were standing right by the open exit where you go to jump out, while he was explaining all of this to me the wind is blowing us intensely and the choppers are just going the whole time. And of course it’s loud and so he’s like yelling over the noise. 

like, “YEAH THERE WAS A SECRET RACE THAT DIED OUT A LONG TIME AGO, THEY WERE REALLY GENTLE AND COMPASSIONATE PEOPLE AND WERE HIGHLY ADVANCED. THEY WOULD OF BEEN GREAT FOR HUMANITY BUT THEY WERE WIPED OUT OVER TIME.” 

Something like that. Lol