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Wow I love it when my mom blows up my phone 

 

that’s so fun 

 

she just talks at me instead of to me 

 

and in the rudest most militaristic way 

 

and I’m like is this really necessary dude lol like just talk to me like a normal person 

 

she’s so used to just pushing me around like a bully she doesn’t realize how it makes me feel and I don’t think she cares either 

 

that’s of no concern 

 

I can’t voice my thoughts or opinions or feelings I can’t get a word in edge wise 

 

it’s just tyrannical yelling and then it ceases because she had more important things to do 

 

and I’m like can i... talk. 

 

But it I couldn’t. I was trying to explain something to her very simple, but she just didn’t have the patience to listen or let me talk. 

 

It was just yelling yelligg yelling yelling and then, bye bitch! 

 

It makes yoj you feel like shit because it’s like yeah let me just abuse the shit out of you and then leave you there to think about how good that felt 

 

it’s manipulative too not just abusive 

 

because it’s like perpetuating the belief that I am her subject and that she owns me and I have to do as she pleases 

 

itd just not not fair to live this way, and I honestly can’t do it anymore lol like I’ve so beyond out grown 

 

the notion of that 

 

not only am I tired of it but my mind just can’t handle it anymore like 

 

it’s like a dam holding back water and after enough pressure it breaks 

 

I’m like far past that point of what I can take 

 

with all this bull shit because it’s judt been too much 

 

over the years it’s all built up and it’s just been pure insanity living with them in my life 

 

I’m so tired too lol like when she talks to me or I’m around my parents I just instantly get exhausted and can’t stsnd to be around it 

 

it’s toxjc 

 

but yeah I just had to vent I guess and that way I can just continue on about living my life and sort of compartmentalism that bull shit 

 

like okay, you can go ahead and do all of that nonsense but I’m gonna love my life over here and you can have fun with that lol but it’s old news and I’ve out grown you and I’ve out grown listening to it or letting it affect me sorry dude 

 

gave you uojr your chances to respect me as an individual but until you do, I don’t care lol like I just, do not physically care 

 

lol 

 

my moms like freaking out 

 

and in like just like “lol yeet” 

 

everything feels reallt cssual to me like jo need to stress and make a big deal out of nothing but 

 

my parents their fists are so tight and they are so stressed and anxious and angry all the time and discontent 

 

km like... yo... it’s all good man like calm down lol 

 

but theure in a constsnt state of white knuckling and like misery. They make themselves miserable with that archaic mentality that all that matters is that green dollar 

 

Seems like the More of it you get the more it takes from you honestly 

 

you gotta re-evaluate what really matters and shit like are you even okay? Are you happy? Like wake up dude what are you doing to yourself calm down lol 

 

its all good... you can stop fighting.. tooth and nail

 

You’re literally fine like, enjoy life dude 

 

what are are you doing lol 

 

like, what. Are you doing. Lol

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you need to try to gain entire self-reliance  if you don't already have it, and cut them out of your life. They are merely toxic baggage that will always try to belittle you and grind you down. 


edit: i'd recommend cutting all forms of contact to them, moving somewhere else so they don't know where you went, and just completely be gone, but i understand that can be challenging.

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last edit on 10/3/2019 7:05:18 PM
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you need to try to gain entire self-reliance  if you don't already have it, and cut them out of your life. They are merely toxic baggage that will always try to belittle you and grind you down. 


edit: i'd recommend cutting all forms of contact to them, moving somewhere else so they don't know where you went, and just completely be gone, but i understand that can be challenging.

 Who's going to pay her rent? 

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you need to try to gain entire self-reliance  if you don't already have it, and cut them out of your life. They are merely toxic baggage that will always try to belittle you and grind you down. 


edit: i'd recommend cutting all forms of contact to them, moving somewhere else so they don't know where you went, and just completely be gone, but i understand that can be challenging.

 Who's going to pay her rent? 

 well that's why im saying she needs to gain self-reliance

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I agree, I want to move to California when I have the means. That’s been the plan all along 

 

I’ve been trying to run away since I was four like lol that desire never went away either. I continued to try pretty much consecutively every year after that too 

 

My whole life I’ve been trying to get out from under the shadow but it’s much more than that like it goes beyond the physical ties 

 

which are easy to surmount and I’m not worried about anymore as much, like I said- it’s all good. 

 

in this thread I’m more talking about the mental prison that psychological abuse and manipulation neglect maltreatment can be and getting out from under that shadow and healing totally from that in a way you can finally find peace with yourself is more important and more challenging than just getting out from under the physiological shadow 

 

so this is how I cope with it is by venting lol and it allows me to step outside of it and be aware of what is happening and how I should react to it 

 

and it’s a way to feel fine after things like this happen so I’m not letting it control or affect me anhmore

 

 

its my way of consoling myself and reminding myself of who I am and my value and my worth and what important. And how to be happy in your core despite circumstances that aren’t always perfectly ideal like, someone having a shit fit in your ear via phone. 

 

Its just a way to be okay and remain stable in myself and feel okay, you know? 

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you need to try to gain entire self-reliance  if you don't already have it, and cut them out of your life. They are merely toxic baggage that will always try to belittle you and grind you down. 


edit: i'd recommend cutting all forms of contact to them, moving somewhere else so they don't know where you went, and just completely be gone, but i understand that can be challenging.

 Who's going to pay her rent? 

 well that's why im saying she needs to gain self-reliance

Yeah, I know. 

But seriously, who's going to pay her rent? 

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Cope's starting to feel like the word of the month lately...

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you need to try to gain entire self-reliance  if you don't already have it, and cut them out of your life. They are merely toxic baggage that will always try to belittle you and grind you down. 


edit: i'd recommend cutting all forms of contact to them, moving somewhere else so they don't know where you went, and just completely be gone, but i understand that can be challenging.

 Who's going to pay her rent? 

 well that's why im saying she needs to gain self-reliance

Yeah, I know. 

But seriously, who's going to pay her rent? 

 I don't have a clue, I'm saying it'd be nice for her to be able to maintain a stable job and pay for her own rent, whether or not she's capable, I don't know all the aspects of it, I assume not (no offense)



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I'm just like smiling rn because, like this thread is about, laughing about the situation but you guys are failing to see why I find it so funny. 

 

Maybe this will help you see what I'm talking about, or my POV

 

My parents are the guy jumping the fence, struggling. Acting all intense and "FBI AND SHIT" 

And then I'm the dude that just walks through the fence 

 

There's absolutely nothing to be stressed about. Is what I'm trying to say, you guys don't start stressing too xD please lol 

 

what I'm trying to say is, it's all good lol and like the bitching I got for breakfast this morning from my mom was, uncalled for and unnecessary and just plain extra. 

 

and im just sitting there listening to it like ???

 

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was there a problem though??? no?? 

 

okay. have a good day sir llol

last edit on 10/3/2019 7:43:03 PM
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she's creating problems and arguments out of thin air :P

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