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a girl i loved, and who i grew up and graduated with committed suicide a month ago, upon hearing the news i didn't really feel anything, i went to go see her corpse, i still felt nothing, i thought i would, but not a single reaction, she was pregnant in our senior year, and I offered to help her any way I could, and I would try to check on her, I had thoughts that if possible, I would've helped her raise that kid, but then my own mental problems kind of fucked with me, and then I became whatever I am now, so I stopped checking in on her, and I completely forgot she existed.
gone
I cried at a funeral when the guards handed my mother the folded American flag they do for military service, people who have died.
that moment is a very emotional moment in a military family funeral. and she brought it to her chest and all I could think about was one day that was going to be me.
another military funeral I was at, the way they played taps, in military tradition... its particularly emotional. I really held myself together as best as I could the entire day, until they played that damn song.
had all the guests in tears by the end of it.
for a military family this is the most horrifying sound you can hear. it really shakes you to your bones when you really hear it.
it really sinks in that this is actually happening. that they're really dead, they're really going in the ground and not coming back, it's really over.
I dunno. it doesn't feel final until you hear this song. horrible I know to talk about but, this is what this thread is about.
grief.
they also did this at one of them.
the video doesn't capture how loud it is in reality, they're only a few feet away when they do it so. the sound knocks your socks off a bit.
no gif to reply to this as it just feels disrespectful. just, no. there are certain things we don't do. and putting reaction gifs in the same thread as a taps video is one of them. but yeah, it has me in tears pretty much every time. once you've experienced it, in real life. it'll always take you back to that exact moment, and that exact feeling.
it's good in a way though because, the song single handedly bottles all the grief had for all U.S military servicemen and women's loved ones. and the unison in that, is enough like. it's a place to bury the emotion of their death, and the meaning of their life. it represents that. and their immortal soul belongs there, in it. as it should. and your grief is capsuled by it, as it should. that is the place for it to be held.
without that, you don't know what to do with it.
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If I was blancs daughter i would probably commit toddler suicide by like running into traffic
UM I WOULD KILL MY MOTHER IS THAT WAS HER. also can u imagine how blanc busted her moms vagina coming outta her with her sharp edges n shit
LMAOOOO BLANC WTF R U ON ABOUT? DID U SERVE IN NAM?
Obviously duh 👽
while all the gunfire was going on I saw some birds and decided to feed the ducks by the pond
and I wound up surviving because the ducks loved me so much for feeding me, they shrouded me with their feathers, picked me up and flew me all the way home
where I was awarded a new award by the military titled “the duck face award”
for the brave travelers of the sky via bird
LMAOOOO BLANC WTF R U ON ABOUT? DID U SERVE IN NAM?
Obviously duh 👽
while all the gunfire was going on I saw some birds and decided to feed the ducks by the pond
and I wound up surviving because the ducks loved me so much for feeding me, they shrouded me with their feathers, picked me up and flew me all the way home
where I was awarded a new award by the military titled “the duck face award”
for the brave travelers of the sky via bird
Alrighty Ducky